I am becoming slowly concerned by the knot in my gut, and the stabbing pains it's causing me. It cannot be natural to lose at least 1lb a day. If not more. Some days it's 2 or even 3lbs.
I don't want to sound like I'm being dramatic, or overreacting here, but I think there's a small chance it could be something serious. How can...
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I don't want to sound like I'm being dramatic, or overreacting here, but I think there's a small chance it could be something serious. How can...
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The past will always catch up with you. This is the truth.
If life is a gravel path, straight and long, every deviation you make, every bad or stupid thing you do is like a pebble kicked forward by your shoe. Amd the cumulative effect of that over time, is to built piles of rubble in your way, blocking the path for you. Sometimes these...
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If life is a gravel path, straight and long, every deviation you make, every bad or stupid thing you do is like a pebble kicked forward by your shoe. Amd the cumulative effect of that over time, is to built piles of rubble in your way, blocking the path for you. Sometimes these...
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shivasshakti:
Wow - I'm totally struck because I was having such a similar thought the other day. How right you are. And how well-put!
It's a beautiful day, and I am playing songs of triumph at earsplitting volume with the windows open.
2 rights make 1 wrong
A simple loop over and over, and the world seems like a magical place. How is it that such beauty can exist in a song, I wonder. How can a guitar lift my soul to this place, so close to heaven. And...
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2 rights make 1 wrong
A simple loop over and over, and the world seems like a magical place. How is it that such beauty can exist in a song, I wonder. How can a guitar lift my soul to this place, so close to heaven. And...
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fpkk:
This entry juxtaposes disturbingly with your red and black profile pic...
We are all made of stars. And gold, I read yesterday, can only form in the heart of a supernova. So all gold comes from supernovae...
We are all made of stars. And gold, I read yesterday, can only form in the heart of a supernova. So all gold comes from supernovae...
shivasshakti:
You are an amazing writer.
the car's on fire and there's no driver at the wheel
and the sewers are all muddied with a thousand lonely suicides
and a dark wind blows
the government is corrupt
and we're on so many drugs
with the radio on and the curtains drawn
we're trapped in the belly of this horrible machine
and the machine is bleeding to death
the sun has fallen...
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and the sewers are all muddied with a thousand lonely suicides
and a dark wind blows
the government is corrupt
and we're on so many drugs
with the radio on and the curtains drawn
we're trapped in the belly of this horrible machine
and the machine is bleeding to death
the sun has fallen...
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10 years ago today, One of my personal heroes took control of his life and left us, never to return. I don't know if he is alive or not, but I will always truely feel his loss. I hope you found some peace, Richey, and I hope wherever you are, be it on this world or the next, that you are finally happy.
I can't...
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I can't...
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Lancel and Chirona
By the shore does Lancel stand
And cast his gaze upon the sand
A woman walking does he see
Chirona by her name is she
A lady of a lower class
But fair as any in his past
And so he asks her for her name
And she replies and asks the same
The reason for his standing here
She soon acquires...
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By the shore does Lancel stand
And cast his gaze upon the sand
A woman walking does he see
Chirona by her name is she
A lady of a lower class
But fair as any in his past
And so he asks her for her name
And she replies and asks the same
The reason for his standing here
She soon acquires...
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I had a great night last night.
I closed up the shop 15 minutes early and then me and Gareth went over to the studio to try and work on some new stuff.Neither of us were really feeling it at first, we were aiming a bit to fast and it was the first time we'd tried to make some music without being stoned and it...
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I closed up the shop 15 minutes early and then me and Gareth went over to the studio to try and work on some new stuff.Neither of us were really feeling it at first, we were aiming a bit to fast and it was the first time we'd tried to make some music without being stoned and it...
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Songs that give me MASSIVE rushes:
Mogwai - 2 rights make 1 wrong
Biffy Clryo - All The Way Down (Prelude/Chapter One)
Stone Roses - Waterfall
Aphex Twin - Windowlicker
It probably doesn't hurt that I've listened to these songs so many times whilst pilling, that I almost have flashbacks from them!
God, I love that natural dopamine release.
Mogwai - 2 rights make 1 wrong
Biffy Clryo - All The Way Down (Prelude/Chapter One)
Stone Roses - Waterfall
Aphex Twin - Windowlicker
It probably doesn't hurt that I've listened to these songs so many times whilst pilling, that I almost have flashbacks from them!
God, I love that natural dopamine release.
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intelinside:
... about how long on average does it take for it to be back to normal size- after i stop the meth.?
intelinside:
alright cool. i feel like shit right now- ended up finishing up what i had at about 12 in the afternoon. by about early 2pm i was feeling drowsy and by 4 i was dead. drank an energy drink to keep me kind of awake for now. i did it 4 days in a row though with not a lot of sleep, no food.
thanks for all your help i would have been hella tripped out without it.
thanks for all your help i would have been hella tripped out without it.
Nobody said it was easy, but noone ever said it would be so hard.
I think (I'm not sure) that I'm on day 5 of cannabis withdrawal.
The mood instabilities are settling somewhat, bu they're still there. I'm relying very heavily on my family and friends to get me through this. The lows are getting less pronounced, and the other extreme is getting pretty good....
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I think (I'm not sure) that I'm on day 5 of cannabis withdrawal.
The mood instabilities are settling somewhat, bu they're still there. I'm relying very heavily on my family and friends to get me through this. The lows are getting less pronounced, and the other extreme is getting pretty good....
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Dear love.
I need you with me through these long dark days, and now when I need you the most it's for the very reason that I can't have you.
I need you to ease my fears and smooth my dips and peaks. I love being with you and spending every waking hour in your company but things have made it clear that we can't...
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I need you with me through these long dark days, and now when I need you the most it's for the very reason that I can't have you.
I need you to ease my fears and smooth my dips and peaks. I love being with you and spending every waking hour in your company but things have made it clear that we can't...
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I think I've finally made a decision.
I don't want to give up smoking pot, but I think I need to stop smoking it all through every day. Things are starting to get a bit heavy, particularly when I'm dropping off to sleep. I occasionally hear voices, and last night, I had something slightly frightning happen. Impossible to explain what it was, but it scared...
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I don't want to give up smoking pot, but I think I need to stop smoking it all through every day. Things are starting to get a bit heavy, particularly when I'm dropping off to sleep. I occasionally hear voices, and last night, I had something slightly frightning happen. Impossible to explain what it was, but it scared...
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lorelei:
dude....i know how you feel... giving up alcohol is easy.. i go through long periods where i can't stand the idea of alcohol anyway.. but i smoke a LOT ... it does kind of normalize me as well. but i do need to cut back.
wow though... .voices? have you smoked that regularly for years and years?
wow though... .voices? have you smoked that regularly for years and years?
rubyred:
you love your drugs dont you. i SO can relate, but yeah, when youre telling yourself it isnt cool, then listen. dont bother going cold turkey cause you'll fuck it. just ease off, do your best. you'll be sweet. but keep at yourself. thats what i do 
"The world has turned, and left me here"
I am at a strange point in my life, I feel. My friends seem intent on becoming adults, and donning their mantles of responsibility, but I just want to be 16 again. I feel like I fucked it all up the first time around, and want a second chance.
Also, I don't see why anyone would actually...
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I am at a strange point in my life, I feel. My friends seem intent on becoming adults, and donning their mantles of responsibility, but I just want to be 16 again. I feel like I fucked it all up the first time around, and want a second chance.
Also, I don't see why anyone would actually...
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kinto:
Look at me & maybe you'll feel better! I'm 32 and the last thing I want is to grow up... I felt that way when I was 22. Is it good or bad? It's not for me to say... and frankly I just don't care.
But yes, I've seen about 95% of the friends my age having kids & mortgages & blah blah blah. Their choice, if they're happy with that...
In French there's a saying: "vivre par procuration", which could be translated by "living through someone else". Most people are so insecure that looking at others & what's generally accepted as the social norm, they do the same because they don't have the balls to simply be themselves. Then, they have kids and stop living their life for themselves, like having a baby suddenly makes them worth something...
This emptiness of self is sad but that's just my point of view...
Just don't think you'll ever be happy by following a general consensus
But yes, I've seen about 95% of the friends my age having kids & mortgages & blah blah blah. Their choice, if they're happy with that...
In French there's a saying: "vivre par procuration", which could be translated by "living through someone else". Most people are so insecure that looking at others & what's generally accepted as the social norm, they do the same because they don't have the balls to simply be themselves. Then, they have kids and stop living their life for themselves, like having a baby suddenly makes them worth something...
This emptiness of self is sad but that's just my point of view...
Just don't think you'll ever be happy by following a general consensus
crackheidi:
Like Kinto said, having a baby, buying a house, having a "proper" job, buying an expensive car.
Glad someone else get the thing about us being animals too. It's funny, I always seem to invert that over-used expression when I'm at the zoo. It keeps going through my head; we're so like them.
Glad someone else get the thing about us being animals too. It's funny, I always seem to invert that over-used expression when I'm at the zoo. It keeps going through my head; we're so like them.
Take care & see you soon hopefully
what's the weather like where you live right now?