Fuck
Fuck fuck
Fuck fuck fuck
Mother mother fuck
Mother mother fuck fuck
Noise noise noise
I remember this group I used to hang out with all the time a few years ago would sing that song everyday. Over and over and over.
I've been an emotional fucking wreck lately. I don't know whats wrong with me.
I want so much. I do so little about it.
I think I'm afraid of commitment.
I want so much from another person.
No one in particular, just in general.
I miss sleeping next to someone. I miss being held and cuddled. I miss depending on someone.
I long to feel true love and for it to be real.
I need that connection to feel human again.
I have that chance. Right fucking now.
Why the fuck can't I take up on it.
I think I'm slowly slipping backwards.
I love how I can be an emo fucking mess on here.
No one judges you. No one brings you down. We're all here to help each other and to be there.
Why can't we all move into one place, one community all together and we can just live among each other and see each other everyday and we can be he best fucking neighborhood ever.
I'm not as social or friendly with you beautiful people as much as you all deserve. I get so wrapped up in my own shit I can't even pretend to be supportive or energetic or peppy or happy.
I gotta stop drinking when I'm down.
Marilyn Manson is calling my name.
I need a nap.
I love all of you. I truly do.
- Jambi
