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Before I get into the fun stuff... I want to take a moment to celebrate the life of Michael Breshaers.... Was a good man, sailed around the world, made people happy with his music, made us laugh, told great stories, fed hundreds of thousands of meals at the ranch, drank like the best of em..... we will all miss you michael.
LGR will never be hte same without you.










with that said... GOOD MORNING!!!

I hope you had a great halloween weekend, I had a blast on Saturday night!







these girls are two tickets to paradise, get it? super cute. I ahve more pictures but i havent loaded them onto my computer yet... I know! I'm slacking!



me and rick james!!

I was in heels... I never wear heels, and the reason I dont wear heels is then i am 6'3 and I can't hear anybody and i was giving really awkward hugs and all that.

I didnt fall down though, I took them off around 1:30.

I actually had a blast and didn't get too hammered, so thats always a plus.

I actually talked to this guy that I have had a little crush on from a distance. I went and sat next to him and we talked and it turns out hes a tool. I was disapointed. I stalked him on facebook and it says that hes in a relationship and then he tried to tell me that he wasn't... and then i was like, well i stalked you on facebook and it says you are and then he was like... meh.... sorta. Dueche bad move. Then he told me that he knew like all this stuff about me, where i work, who i have slept with, where i live, and yes we live in a very small town but i barely knew this cat's name and turns out, he has a crush on me too and went on and on about my body and all this shit and its like, maaaan! I love the chase. Don't tell me that shit. If he would have been like, yeah I have a serious girlfriend and I love her and walked away... the crush would have been intensified.... if he hadn't told me all that shit... cuz hes like, tall and kinda chubby and has long hair and hes a musician... perfect for me! But once he started talking i was like ooook!

Then he comes up to a group of my friends that i was talking to and asked if i needed a ride home and that was also a dueche move. its so important to play these things out well, ya know what i mean?

I ended up making out with adrian in the bar anyways later. I was out til 4am... i never do that!

Adrian is my boy that I said I am over but I'm really not. We actually finally had sex last weekend after ive been back on isladn for two months. It was nice to be close again, and break my streak, I was going on a month or some shit. He smells good and he feels good but it was certainly not the same. The connection has faded, which is a great thing for me and my lil heart healing business I've been trying to work on. Very affirming.
Although kissing in the bar made everyone be like, omg jill u got what u wanted! But really we make out every time we see each other, just not usually PDA style in the middle of the damn bar, but after 3am I'm pretty sure you can get away with anything. Especially dressed as a sexy slutty darth vader.

AYOOO!!


So my resturant was closed for three weeks so I have had a ton of time to just sit alone in my room which i love to do, but we are opening up on Wednesday.

She asked us to come in, either monday or tuesday to help clean up and make the place all shiney and new again. Lunch was to be provided... most of us decided we were coming both days because we all want to kiss our bosses ass and we are all broke and fucking hungry.
Well yesterday we were there, I aws the only one who brought weed and you gotta be high to clean and clean so my bag is almost gone. Then we were all drinking beers and cleaning and all DRIPPING with sweat, well around 2 I was like... whats up with us getting free lunch out of all this volunteer cleaning we are doing? adn shes like, thats tomorrow! So... we didn't get fed and by 3 i was shaking and hunger bitch and running into stuff and dropping stuff... no good. People were making fun of me like they always do and I was not in a mood and I was sad about my friend dying and came home and cried my eyes out.
I woke up feeling a lot better but upon talking about it am a little irritated again. But... todays a new day, I will feel good about the way the resturant looks.

I think we are having a pizza party and beers later.

I finally got my beer belly back, after doing nothing but drinking for three weeks. Im totally looking and feeling chubby. Wearing my chubby shorts... I probably need to do something about it but I wont. I was trying to shoot sets while i was still super toned from the ranch but I doubt anyone can really tell a difference but me anyways.

The bugs have been really bad. I am eaten up, even with my misquito net.

The waves were HUGE yesterday and we are so so far from that storm that ya'll on the east coast are dealing with. Being so close to the water and everything, I feel the affects of nature and the moon and all that so much more. I am totally ovulating on the full moon every month now and I get all crazy.
This is the moon from my porch



I was riding in cowboys car the other day and this was riding with me... scary huh?




One of these days I'm going to have a boyfriend who wants to cuddle and watch star wars with me. Its been too long.



My friend broke my pipe the other day and i told him he owed me a back massage for it and i basically was just in a mood where i wanted to be touch and he rubbed my body really well and we snuggled and fit together in an amazing way. I love men who are 6'2 and kinda skinny cuz I am designed to fit into that shape as a little spoon for real. It was so cozy and then he started kissing on me and cuz i was so comfy i was just like letting it happen and he has really nice lips and was kissing me slow the way i like it and all of a sudden i realized i was being seduced and I made him leave. It was fun, but theres something in me thats always saying not to sleep with this guy... I met him when I first got on island and totally thought he was hot, hes got a lion of judah tat also like mine, but then he asked out my best friend and they fucked for a while and since then I'm like... I'm not going to be your second choice. I hate to be competetive like that, but you guys get it, right? I love steff, shes beautiful, and I really dont want to do all her sloppy seconds.

I always tell you all about my sexcapades but... who else am i going to tell? I'm sure its impossible to keep all these men straight lol!

Tis the life of a single woman i guess... im frickin horny all the time too. I really dont want to be sleeping around I try and keep like one or two slam pieces going and fight off the rest.

I've been getting more into my blog lately, I have had all this free time but its more than that. I love spillin my guts here. Its very therapudic. I never read any of my blogs either, but when I do im always super embarrassed and hope to god the people im writing about never read this!

Suicidegirls is not a thing down here though. I dont think we have any members on this whole island other than myself.


I really want to be the VI's first SG. I wish my photographer would jump on my set and work on it a bunch but i know its way on the back burner of his priorities. maybe when I start making money I will throw some at him so he works on it. I'm interested to see his editting skills. We have significantly improved on working together... this being our 3rd attempt at shooting a set. They actually look like SG pictures and they weren't even editted yet and I know that can make a huge difference.

i'm not sure why photographers have such a hard time grasping the concept of getting close up shots. Everyone i have worked with I'm like... its okay to get closer and get close up shots, and I will show them several examples of what SG wants and likes and all these different artistic angles and we had hardly any of them in the final project. I guess we can just cut close ups out of other pictures but if I'm not sitting with him adn being like do this do that im not sure if the set will turn out looking as SG as I can imagine it.... if that makes any sense.

I want to work with staff! Staff... I want to work with you! Please shoot me and dont charge me a shit ton of money... When I come back to the states I would even be willing to like, fly somewhere and stay in a hotel for a couple nights to make this happen.

Seems like I've come too far now to give up. I see hopefuls give up or be MIA and after putting two years into this I want SOME results!!

I wish if I am like, not hot enough or theres some reason I will never be an SG they would like, send me an email being like... jamberee-give up already and then I would happily be a member and not keep trying. I do admit that my last two sets kind of suck. Theres editting and lighting issues in my first three... and none of them are SG quality.... but, its so hard to get it right and I can't do it all on my own.

This is getting way too long. Okay... Peace out!