jamberee_

Good morning!

Yesterday I ordered two meals at a resturant to go and laid in bed watching how I met your mother for 5 hours... i love ted mosby... hes so hot and sweet lol..

I woke up feeling like crap, but I dont want to feel like crap today cuz its SUNDAY FUNDAY!

so instead I got up and cleaned my room, that always levels out my head a bit.

wake up sad remedy...redbull + 3 hits of pot + cleaning = not such a bad start to the day.

I didn't buy tickets to this reggae festival but its happening down the road from my house, so if I show up early I'm sure I'll be able to get in a reggae party!

I have a new dress that I'm excited to wear!



looks better on, im sure.

I also have this new skirt, that i LOVE!!



made by the one and only Dessa ....

dessagod.etsy.com




So Im going to see about a dozen of st croix's local reggae artists...

My FAVORITE is not going to be there, Melame Gange....
but here is some of his tunes... please give it a listen if you are into reggae cuz you might really like him!
I just saw this new video recently, its kinda silly but its a good song.

http://youtu.be/9J3RrHFrcVE

this isn't my favorite, but it has the most hits on youtube so it must be good...

http://youtu.be/F8Rp-IsUXcQ


but im excited to see harry mo and charese king...



This show was supposed to be last weekend but it got cancelled cuz we thought we were going to get hit hard by tropical storm raphael... so rescheduled for today!



Thats Harry Mo... I love that guy!




So this week is going to be exciting.

Steffany gets here on Tuesday! Steffany is the girl that I moved down here with last year, we worked at the ranch together as wranglers, and I haven't seen her since I left the ranch. We didn't leave on the best terms and I can sense some hostility so I'm a little bit nervous. I am going to just try and go with the flow and be loving and welcoming and try to make things better between us. I am really bad at keeping secrets and I'm kind of ashamed of myself... but... nobody's perfect and hopefully we can just move past all the bullshit.


Thursday is when CARL gets here!!!! I looooove me some carl. he worked at the ranch this year too and we got closer, but I havent seen him in 2 months and I miss him.





Hes fun to be around. We were planning on moving in together but I am having serious second thoughts now. I love where I'm living right now, the location, the rent, my landlord, all the animals, the pool... but we are close friends so I kind of feel like an ass for doing this to him.
One thing I learned last season was that I can't put my neck out (especially when it involves money) for my friends because I feel morally obligated because in the end, people wouldn't do the same for me and it ends up biting me in the ass.

Just between you and me, I kind of have feelings for carl.. maybe? I love him, like a brother but lately when he touches me it makes me feel all fluttery inside so maybe I have a bit of a crush on him. If we are roommates.... that could get really messy.

The funny feelings started when he sat me down and told me that he cared about me too much for us ever to fuck because he cares a lot about our friendship and wouldn't want anything to come between us, and I was like OMG i feel the same way! As soon as the man told me he wouldn't sleep with me, I wanted to. I always kinda thought I could whenever I wanted so a week or so later I snuck in his bed and kinda tried and hes like no sorry and after that... crush.
I'm dumb.

But I've gone three whole days without talking to adrian and I want to keep this up. No more heart ache. Its a sick sad addiction that I need to overcome.

It's crazy too because I have been fooling around with this guy...
the one on the left


but when I masterbate, I'm still thinking about this guy!! (one on the right)



I guess both of them are really hot lol... but... its time to move on. Other guy just got divorced so Its like no strings attached really REALLY hot sex... perfect! I love a good fuck buddy, especially ones that I haven't developed any feelings for!

Anyways.... that was a tangent I just went on...



love these paws!!



fire dancers on stilts!


I'm not sure if I told you guys this yet but on Monday I ate mushrooms with my best friend and we chilled out and watched the sun set and it BLEW MY MIND! I thought it was the most beautiful sunset I had ever seen, and so I took several pictures of it... turns out even my sober face thinks its the most beautiful sunset I have ever seen! It was a good night, we danced naked in the moonlight and swam in the pool... having a pool makes tripping So frickin fun! Being able to just float in the water and space out... good times. The night ended in a very relaxing massage trade.






puppies





I love cowboy steve too! We have been hanging out a lot lately. On friday we are taking the horses to the school and dressing them up for halloween and giving pony rides for a fund raiser. Last year it was soooo fun.




It is so much work to take them there. We have already started trying to train teh horses to go into the trailer. That was frickin intense. Theres so much fear there... turns out... I'm very afraid of being in a trailer with a scared horse. Clastrophobia! We so far have done really well and we are proud of the progress we've made.

I had a nightmare last night about the trailer. Always if theres something going on inside of me thats related to horses and fear always the horses turn into GIANT DOGS! I'm scared of dogs.. for hte most part. so... it shows up in my subconcious



the other day I was so excited to catch the turtles doing it



i dont know what i think about this picture of me but here it is!


K... have a great day everybody! SUNDAY FUNDAY !!!