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So yeah... Stalking mission complete.... it was successful i think, He said that He went into my work the second time to talk to me and that hes shy... which i assumed both of those things, i could tell by the way he said hello to me and sat right next to the waitress station that something was up... when i saw him my energy level went through the roof. I hope that when we actually do go out on a date that I can relax and be myself because when I am nervous I just try and make people laugh and I get really loud... its AWFUL!

I have been dealing with this nervous reaction my whole life... how i long to be one of those people that gets nervous and doesn't say anything at all!

So...I'm interested to see how this whole thing goes. We would make a really fricking cute couple I think. I have always envisioned myself with a tattooed up lanky punk rocker/hippie.... (cuz thats kinda who i am) I actually got tattoos so guys with tattoos paid more attention to me... isn't that an excellent reason!

Thats at least why I got tattoos in visible places... It seems to me if you are going to invest in this, i better show it off not have to like, pull down my pants any time i want to share my art.

So right after I get done talking to this guy, another guy that I have a thing for called me and asked me to hang out.... hes really cool and he has a girlfriend... but the whole me and him being friends thing didn't last long... we hung out all day one day and at the end of the day... got it on LIKE CHAMPIONS and afterwards during cuddle debriefign time he was like, so i have a girlfriend. oops.... I'm always the other woman... for real yo. I am a naughty little mistress and I'm also hot... so I am always falling for/lustign after/banging guys who are in it for the experience and not like they want to date me.
Somday maybe....

I'm not really trying to get too tied down though cuz monogomy is overrated. I just want to be important to someone, and not feel like I'm a booty call. I am also an amazing listener and really open minded so guys are always fucking me and talking to me about there girl problems, and I do it and i love it but i dont know...

I dont know what i want.

I'm almost the birthday girl, NIYORAH MORE DAYS AND COUNTING... thats how im celebrating, niyorah show... i got my ticket tonight.


I just got home from a ten hour day at work and I'm kinda bummed out right now... I worked my ass off and we had a shift change at 430 and we pool tips, i made 140... which is great, I put the money in my purse and continued working a double and when i got home... my $100 bill was missing out of my wallet.

Lots of people go in and out of the back in a shift, like people that work here and sometimes random people and my purse was back where it always goes... it makes me sad to think someone would steal from me, and it also makes me sad to accuse people in my head. It's a strange situation. I'm not sure how to feel about it. But... I'm all sticky and sweaty, its been a really hot humid day today and i work at a beach bar outside so I been SWEATING running food around and i just got home and realized my money was gone and I wanted to take a bath and my water is turned off... so im all sweaty and sticky and sad.

but... it will be good... tomorrow is my day off... i have a date. I will (obviously) keep you updated with my life drama, as always.

Did i mention that my set i shot the other day didn't really turn out? We got a couple epic shots, and thats about it.... we talked about going back but its definitely not a winner, and I need to shoot higher i'm thinking...

I knew that cowgirl set had no chance of getting bought but I paid for it to get shot, and I liked it... so I submitted it anyways but I've been realizing lately that I need to take this more seriously and get more competitive if I ever want to get anywhere on this site.

I love being a hopeful and I'm really skeptical of me ever getting THE TITLE but... trying is fun! its challenging, it makes me feel sexy and I also love that people whisper about me.... that girl over there.... shes naked on the internet, suicide girls....

no oen really knows about suicide girls on island but I've been spreading the word... or... the word is spreading itself!! Before i got here my friend that I knew here told all the guys that a suicide girl was coming to live on island.

I hate when people call me a suicide girl tho... cuz it makes me feel like a poser... i get all snappy and im like, im not a suicide girl!! err!


seriously though staff.... if you have sold any subscriptions in the past 6 months in the virgin islands... its cuz people are stalking my sexy ass!!!!