I havent logged on to SG for a while and it looks like Ive been missing out. New sets from Scarlett and Rose, and even a first from Loreleis friend Lucia. Everytime I go away for a while, they start posting some really great sets.
Ive had no choice but to nearly kill myself working. Summer quarter ended Friday and I still havent turned in all my assignments, as usual. Also, Im now paying for a dedicated server, so I need to get my business web site launched ASAP. Then I have a million other things to do, such as finishing Croatans web site, and rewriting my business plan so that I can go beg people for money for an advertising budget for my business (which is a pretty useless endeavor because Im a techie, not a businessman). Oh well, this is turning into a diatribe of complaints.
Really, I think Im just bored. This web hosting and design stuff is interesting enough, especially the network tech part of it. Its helping me become more independent of the established American lifestyle than I have ever been. Compared to being the homeless squatter I once was, I have much more freedom now than I did then. Always being hungry, always being harassed by cops, with my only escape being a chemical on little tabs of paper, left me with much less freedom than I have now. Nevertheless, Ive said it before and Ill say it again freedom is a lie. Independence is lonely. In my younger life, I was completely dependent on others, on my friends, on a scene. That dependence was emotionally fulfilling, whereas the independence I now enjoy is intellectually fulfilling. As a techno-hermit, I can live my life in a manner most consistent with my ideals. I can reduce my impact on the planet. I can learn to use the tools of the establishment to corrupt it from the inside. I can survive free of wage-slavery and the circadian Hell it imposes. I can use their money to further my goals. I can find the knowledge that will sustain me far beyond my natural lifespan. I can become master of my future and my past. I can become God! God, unfortunately, will always be alone in the void, capable of creating nothing, because God has never existed, and will never exist. So there I am, always chasing infinity, knowing that I will never succeed.
This is your brain on boredom
Ive had no choice but to nearly kill myself working. Summer quarter ended Friday and I still havent turned in all my assignments, as usual. Also, Im now paying for a dedicated server, so I need to get my business web site launched ASAP. Then I have a million other things to do, such as finishing Croatans web site, and rewriting my business plan so that I can go beg people for money for an advertising budget for my business (which is a pretty useless endeavor because Im a techie, not a businessman). Oh well, this is turning into a diatribe of complaints.
Really, I think Im just bored. This web hosting and design stuff is interesting enough, especially the network tech part of it. Its helping me become more independent of the established American lifestyle than I have ever been. Compared to being the homeless squatter I once was, I have much more freedom now than I did then. Always being hungry, always being harassed by cops, with my only escape being a chemical on little tabs of paper, left me with much less freedom than I have now. Nevertheless, Ive said it before and Ill say it again freedom is a lie. Independence is lonely. In my younger life, I was completely dependent on others, on my friends, on a scene. That dependence was emotionally fulfilling, whereas the independence I now enjoy is intellectually fulfilling. As a techno-hermit, I can live my life in a manner most consistent with my ideals. I can reduce my impact on the planet. I can learn to use the tools of the establishment to corrupt it from the inside. I can survive free of wage-slavery and the circadian Hell it imposes. I can use their money to further my goals. I can find the knowledge that will sustain me far beyond my natural lifespan. I can become master of my future and my past. I can become God! God, unfortunately, will always be alone in the void, capable of creating nothing, because God has never existed, and will never exist. So there I am, always chasing infinity, knowing that I will never succeed.
This is your brain on boredom
lol, that made my morning...
and i enjoyed reading your other posts in that thread too.
When making a pledge to the good ole' USA, one endorses, either actively or passively, the violence the state must use to maintain itself.
-very good point.
lucia's set was wonderful wasn't it? (and you should see her in person....yowwza!)... yes you're right, it was photographed by her lover. we are indeed 'kept in the dark' about when we're going up.. but i guess that adds to the excitement. i wouldn't want to know exactly when i am going up...i only hope it won't take much longer!
"misandrist"... thank you, i never knew the word for the opposite of mysogynist. i think i know how you feel though, a couple of my guy friends are the same way - make nice gestures in the efforts to become friends with a girl, but the girls usually interpret it as a come-on. sometimes you really can't blame them. i blame the guys that have in the past made them become that defensive..
that being said, i myself rarely say no to a free drink...
i can't believe you actually got gummo! i know how disturbing it is... i had trouble getting through the whole thing. retards, gay rabbit harrassment... it's a little much. still, i would probably watch it again.. its like that 'car crash' cliche.
too bad to know that The Van is out of print.. maybe i can find it on ebay or something. hurray for fish and chips! welll...just the chips for me of course, being an herbivore. chips with vinegar... occasionally even curry sauce. not that you can get that here.
don't worry about taking a while to reply...as you can see i do the same sometimes.