Break-ups? Fun. Seriously.
This time, it was all down to me. While I've been away. I had shitloads of time to think - probably too much. But it was really when I was talking to a guy on my last night in Vancouver that I decided things couldn't go on the way they were. She was way more invested in the relationship than I was, and since the last breakup I guess you could say I hadn't been taking it as seriously as she was. She was always texting me while I was away saying that she missed me, and it did actually surprise me when I realised I wasn't really missing her. The one that really killed me was when she said she hoped I loved her as much as she loved me. But I didn't. If you feel that way about someone, you just know - and by the same token, if you don't then you just know too. It's one of those undeniable things.
Unfortunately, I made the mistake of hiding the way I was feeling and the doubts I was having, and even though I wasn't exactly being the most devoted boyfriend in the world, I was far from being the worst. I've always been kind of a chicken when it comes to talking about how I really feel, but I thought my actions might have tipped her off that something wasn't right.
But no.
And now she hates me. And to be perfectly frank, I'm not too fond of myself right now either.
The bravest thing I've ever done
Was to run away and hide
But not this time, not this time
And the weakest thing I've ever done
Was to stay right by your side
Just like this time, and every time
I couldn't tell you I was happy when you were gone
So I lied and said that I missed you when we were apart
I couldn't tell you, so I had to lead you on
But I didn't mean to break your heart
And if I always seem distracted
Like my minds somewhere else
That's because it's true, yes it's true
it's this stupid pride that makes me feel
Like I have to follow through
Even half-assedly, loving you
Why must I always speak in terms of cowardice?
When I guess I should have just come out and told you right from the start
Why must I always tell you all I want is this?
I guess 'cause I didn't want to break your heart
And you said
What'd you think that I was gonna do,
Curl up and die just because of you?
I'm not that weak, you know
What'd you think that I was gonna do,
Try to make you love me as much as I love you?
How could you be so low?
You arrogant man,
What do you think that I am?
My heart will be fine
Just stop wasting my time
And now I know that you will be okay, and that I got what I want
and that's rid of you
Good bye
And it's not cause I'll be missing you
That makes me fall apart
It's just that I didn't mean to break
No I didn't mean to break
No I didn't mean to break
Your heart
This time, it was all down to me. While I've been away. I had shitloads of time to think - probably too much. But it was really when I was talking to a guy on my last night in Vancouver that I decided things couldn't go on the way they were. She was way more invested in the relationship than I was, and since the last breakup I guess you could say I hadn't been taking it as seriously as she was. She was always texting me while I was away saying that she missed me, and it did actually surprise me when I realised I wasn't really missing her. The one that really killed me was when she said she hoped I loved her as much as she loved me. But I didn't. If you feel that way about someone, you just know - and by the same token, if you don't then you just know too. It's one of those undeniable things.
Unfortunately, I made the mistake of hiding the way I was feeling and the doubts I was having, and even though I wasn't exactly being the most devoted boyfriend in the world, I was far from being the worst. I've always been kind of a chicken when it comes to talking about how I really feel, but I thought my actions might have tipped her off that something wasn't right.
But no.
And now she hates me. And to be perfectly frank, I'm not too fond of myself right now either.
The bravest thing I've ever done
Was to run away and hide
But not this time, not this time
And the weakest thing I've ever done
Was to stay right by your side
Just like this time, and every time
I couldn't tell you I was happy when you were gone
So I lied and said that I missed you when we were apart
I couldn't tell you, so I had to lead you on
But I didn't mean to break your heart
And if I always seem distracted
Like my minds somewhere else
That's because it's true, yes it's true
it's this stupid pride that makes me feel
Like I have to follow through
Even half-assedly, loving you
Why must I always speak in terms of cowardice?
When I guess I should have just come out and told you right from the start
Why must I always tell you all I want is this?
I guess 'cause I didn't want to break your heart
And you said
What'd you think that I was gonna do,
Curl up and die just because of you?
I'm not that weak, you know
What'd you think that I was gonna do,
Try to make you love me as much as I love you?
How could you be so low?
You arrogant man,
What do you think that I am?
My heart will be fine
Just stop wasting my time
And now I know that you will be okay, and that I got what I want
and that's rid of you
Good bye
And it's not cause I'll be missing you
That makes me fall apart
It's just that I didn't mean to break
No I didn't mean to break
No I didn't mean to break
Your heart