My last few days have been full of crying, catering to Mary Jane's every need, and praying to a God I don't even really believe in. But it's all I can do because honestly I'm at a loss.
Slowly I feel like I'm losing myself but I know I can't allow myself to spiral. Lack of sleep and appetite are catching up to me though I just keep pushing forward to be able to care for MJ. And I promised many of you that I would keep you all updated.
Mary Jane's days have been full of sleep, taking meds, being hand fed (she only eats right now if I am holding her food), cuddles in her favorite Spencer's blanket, and being carried outside to potty. On the bright side she doesn't seem to be in pain thanks to the pain meds she's on so that's a huge plus.
I want to take the time to thank you all for all your support and love. I've realized in the last few days how real the friendships I've made here truly are. You all are so much more to me than just supporters and I want you all to know that. You all have become family to me. You all have also made me realize how shitty IRL friends can be. Some IRL friends have even told me "she's just a dog"... but you all can see how much she truly means to me.
I have updated my Allmylinks as well as sharing updates on my socials, which you can find on my Allmylinks as well.
Much love SG, stay lit for me in my absence!