jaded_skyler

Just for you baby.
By Skyler Jade
Playful in bed
you smack my behind
Your face turning red,
your cock is divine.

Kissing my hips,
your personal handles.
Biting my lip,
grinding like animals.

Hot sweat glistening
I play with my tits.
My legs quivering
watching you suck on my clit.

Blowing on my back
you send chills up my spine.
I play with your sack
our bodies intertwined.

Switching positions
you hit my spot.
Masterful musician
you know how to rock.

Exploding in me
your eyes roll back in your head.
Pulsing with ecstasy
lets do it again!
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Perfect for you
By Skyler Jade
I want to be perfect for you as you are to me,
but perfection is something I can never be.

Although sometimes Im difficult, your life I enhance.
I will love you forever if you give me the chance.

You can only loose points if you are playing a game.
Im not keeping score, we have to much to gain.

You say not to be hard on myself, yet you are so hard on me.
Announcing my faults fuels my insecurities.

I love everything about you, I would never ask you to change.
Even though you mean well, you still pick at my pain.

Your concern cuts me deeper than I ever could,
yet I sit and I listen knowing your intentions are good.

I dont want you to stop, please share your views,
but dont question our love, I know mine is true.

15 years of difference does equal a lot,
still so many people dream for what weve got.

I should know, I used to be one.
My dreams came true, my search is done.

All relationships have their problems, especially the good.
Its healthy to argue, every couple should.

No getting scared or pushing away,
embrace this love and hold on always.
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This year is
By Skyler Jade
This year is yours. Its your turn for fame.
Beheld in glory all will know your name.
They will listen in silence and explode with excite.
With the power of a god you triumph with delight.
On every station your songs are playing.
Your words etched in everyones brain.
They will throw themselves and kneel at your feet.
Successful and assured, intimidating everyone you meet.
The life of your dreams, and riches bestowed.
Conquering the world, your talent is known.

This year is mine. Its my turn to be free.
To finally live the life that suits me.
Comforting chaos, days filled with noise.
Nightly excursions thoroughly enjoyed.
The clubs, and the dancing, the parties oh my!
The clothing, the culture, the foods I will try.
Everything I could possibly want at my disposal.
Able to be myself, hair down like Repunsile.
No reason to front with nothing to hide.
Young and outgoing, my presence cannot be denied.

This year is ours. Our turn for love and affection.
We feed each others needs with a profound connection.
Support never ending, Ill believe in you forever.
Theres nothing we cant accomplish together.
Nightly affairs filled with ecstasies and torrid passion.
In each other's bed, by each others side, no matter what happens.
This year will mean the change of our lives.
Filled with adventure, devotion ,and surprise.
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Image
By Skyler Jade
More and more I begin to recognize myself less and less.
Resistant but compliant, you know whats best.

I do everything wrong, I can never be right.
I must sit and be grateful as you dictate my life.

Always improving yet never enough.
You judge and lecture about the most trivial stuff.

Ill do anything to please you yet you seem so annoyed.
As my attempts keep failing my will is destroyed.

How can you pretend to love who I am?
When change to perfection is what you demand.

How can you study me and see so many faults?
Believing that you could admire me is difficult.

I wish I could see myself through your eyes and know who you want me to be.
Because trying to guess is driving me fuckin crazy.

My staring makes you uncomfortable it seems.
Im trying to get your attention, I JUST WANT YOU TO LOOK AT ME!

Gaze at me until my face is burned into your mind.
Tell me that Im beautiful time after time.

Because no matter what I wear,
or how I do my hair,
I always will be. (beautiful)

Now open your eyes so you can see me.
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I know you cheat
By Skyler Jade
Ive spent most of my life wishing I could die.
Miserable and depressed, Im to dysfunctional to survive.

Never enough love, drowning in pain.
Grateful I am, but I deserve to complain.

Happiness fades, and love must be earned.
My love is lost in your heart thats been burned.

Im tired of giving you reasons to love me. Is it really that hard?
Can you forgive my flaws and look passed my scars?

Nothing left to sell you either want me or you dont.
Please say that you do, I hate being alone.

Why cant you hold me forever, never push me away.
For with each push, the further I stray.

Do you think that Im stupid? I know that you cheat.
How can I trust a relationship full of deceit?

I hear you whispering naked promises, I see your wondering eyes.
You think that Im oblivious believing your lies.

As you seduce and fondle right under my nose.
You think I should feel special being the one that you chose?

Well I dont. I cant. Because all my attention is not enough to satisfy your hunger.
You still lust and you yearn prowling for the undiscovered.

After a night of fornication, home to me you come.
To get satisfied further, Arent I the lucky one?

How many girls are there? Thinking that you are all theirs?
Saving themselves for your touch, thinking you care.

Why do I love you? Why dont I confront you?
The gain of your approval I still pursue.

I deserve better but youre all I want.
Careful what you wish for, look what Ive got.
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Door mat
By Skyler Jade
It makes me feel good to make you feel better.
When I need help, will i come to you? Never
We all have scars that we choose to hide
I just dont wear sleeves to cover up mine.
My scars tell my story theyre part of who i am.
I know myself well and who I am is not bad.
I was the person you came to when you needed help.
I sat there and listened as you told what you felt.

Im the door mat to wipe the shit that youve stepped in.
I help you by making you feel shiny and new again.
But where do you go when I need a friend?
You just leave me outside, cold and alone again.

And then slam the fucking door in my face.
I resume to a door mat as if that were my place.

I know I have so many problems that can never be solved.
When I start to discuss them you say youd rather not get involved.
No matter who does the pushing i always go back inside.
Within myself, the best place to hide.
Rapidly I begin build my own walls.
Until the day someone new comes and they fall.
And once again i am part of this insecure world.
For unlike you my own insecurities i have hurled.

Im the door mat to wipe the shit that youve stepped in.
I help you by making you feel shiny and new again.
But where do you go when I need a friend?
You just leave me outside, cold and alone again.
And then slam the fucking door in my face.
I resume to a door mat as if that were my place.

Who cares if some things i do are deranged.
So what if i cut inflicting my own pain?
This skin does not belong to you, it is mine.
I will cut it I will wear and it suits me just fine.
You have no idea how much strength it takes to be me.
For i abuse myself because i am so weak.
My role at this point seems clear.
Until the day i will once again disappear.

Im the door mat to wipe the shit that youve stepped in.
I help you by making you feel shiny and new again.
But where do you go when I need a friend?
You just leave me outside, cold and alone again.
And then slam the fucking door in my face.
I resume to a door mat as if that were my place.
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Victim of my Mind
By Skyler Jade
Why do I torment myself all of the time?
Arguing and insulting in my own mind.
Just shut up already, and let your self speak.
I cant stand to look at you I hate how you think.
Stop hurting yourself and just let yourself be.
Youre not helping anything youre just hurting me.
If you want something just take it you are in your own way.
My inner conflicts put my life on delay.
I ruin everything, I am to blame.
No wonder I always feel so ashamed.
I have only one person to punish only one to hate.
So I am the one who I mutilate.
Im so fucked up, I really need help.
The longer I wait the more problems develop.
No one can help me and I cannot ask.
I try to go on putting that shit in the past.
The more I put behind me the more I continue to drag.
The slower I go, the harder it is to get ahead.
And away from all the shit that I cannot face.
I wish I knew how to gather my strength.
Instead of all these mental ailments eating my brain.
I cant stop it now, Im going insane.
But even that would be better than how I feel now.
I know I can do this I just dont know how.
I ruin everything, I am to blame.
No wonder I always feel so ashamed.
I have only one person to punish only one to hate.
So I am the one who I mutilate.
Confused by my own ridicule.
Abused by my own hands.
I cant even satisfy my personal demands.
I am my worst victim of my own mind.
The one place I can never leave, forever trapped here inside.
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I am
By Skyler Jade
~Look at me~

I am innocent. I am guilty.
I am pure. I am filthy.
I am soft. I am pretty.
I am jagged. I am ugly.
I am hard. I am easy.
I am predictable. I am tricky.
I am tragedy. I am victory.
I am classy. I am trashy.
Hideous behind a mask of beauty.
Capable of lying truthfully.

~What do you see?~

I am love. I am hate.
I am minute. I am great.
I am casual. I am extreme.
I am kind. I am mean.
I am cut. I am whole.
I am young. I am old.
I am broken. I am complete.
I am expensive. I am cheep.
My weakness is strength.
So covered Im blank.

~What am I?~

I am forgiven. I am blamed.
I am confident. I am ashamed.
I am free. I am restrained.
I am confined. I am untamed.
I am trusted. I am betrayed.
I am different. I am the same.
I am unique. I am plain.
I am crazy. I am sane.
I am calm. I am enraged.
I am board. I am entertained.
While finding I am lost
I have lost all that Ive gained.
Everythings still there, yet nothing remains.

~Can you see me?~
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Pride
By Skyler Jade
I now understand the pain that I feel.
The pride I never knew I had is real.
For how else would it be so easy to harm me?
My skin is tuff but you can hurt my dignity.
So unintentional, so misspoken.
Im so ashamed, my pride has been broken.
Abused with my own hands.
Beaten down by my own reprimand.
Now suddenly I know why.
I am a victim of my own pride.
So easy to insult. So hard to replace.
Your words hit me like a slap in the face.
But it is not your fault it is mine.
Consumed and indulged, I am lost in my pride.
What is it that Im I trying to prove?
All of my intentions have been misconstrued.
My pride is the armor weighing me down.
A common cause of failure among the renowned.
Pride is pain. Pride is brutal.
Pride is also quite useful.
Pride is that voice whispering lies in my ear.
Building me up while making me insecure.
With none in the way I feel the need to compete.
I have lost to myself, I must suffer defeat.
The more pride I gain the more there is to take.
Im tragic in pain, my confidence is fake.
I must concur my pride and forgive my insanities.
I must believe in myself and not in my vanities.
Making me humble I give up my pride.
I admit to myself that its all just a lie.