fuckfuckfuck...i'm so grouchy today, my head hurts and i'm having panic attacks and my taoist breathing exersizes aren't working. i hate feeling like this and my feelings about my feelings only make it worse. oh, life is irony. what sucks is that i really have more to feel good about than bad, yet still i seem to involentarily sabatoge my own happiness...like i can't allow myself to feel good for any length of time. it's stupid and it sucks. what's wrong with me? 
receptionistdesk:
awww panic attacks are the absolute evilest!
machasha:
Biggie up to ya....smoke em if you got 'em. 