It's late but I don't really feel like sleeping so I thought I would do a recap/commentary on my first real week in Toronto.
The Apartment:
My apartment is still pretty awesome. No noisy neighbors, clean, safe building, with a good super. Given there's a couple of oddities like how the taps on my kitchen sink are backwards (the hot is on the right). But overall it's a nice place. I know I could be doing much worse. Now if only I could find French bread pizzas at the supermarket. Really the only thing I truly miss is my cat, Kelvin, but he's in very good hands so I know he is happy.
School:
I survived the first week of school. My profs don't sound or look too bad but it's still very early in the semester. But I do think we're off to a good start...I hope. As everyone who has been reading my blog knows I have been trying to make sure that this school year is nothing like my year at Queen's and the last time I lived in Canada.
For those who haven't been reading my blog, here's the short story:
Came to Canada to go to Queen's University in Kingston, ON about 3 1/2 years ago. But due to my lack of fitting in with 99% of the student population, having the dorm floor from hell, a bunch of previous unresolved issues with depression and anxiety from my youth, and a really unreasonable class schedule, I had a complete and utter mental breakdown.
So hence the careful self monitoring I do on a daily basis so that those issues don't come up again because really I want to get undergrad done and move on. Most likely to grad school and beyond.
Social Stuff:
To make sure that the above doesn't happen again I made a big priority to be social as I can up here but to also be social with real people, not just those who are looking for something in return.
Of course where is better place to meet those kind of people then right here on SG! It has been awesome to meet and hang so many cool folks from the site.
On a side note, I love you people very much but please do not send me a friendship request if I have never talked to you before. Comment on one of my journal posts at least or have a discussion with me in one of the groups to show that you are interested in conversing with me and not just a friend collector.
Mental Health:
So far I think my depression and anxieties are still in check. Which I think is largely due to two things: First off I'm not in the toxic environment my mother created. Secondly, I've started to live more with a confident view of myself. I am who I am and yes I'm strange as hell and rub a lot of people the wrong way some how but there's no sense in getting bent out of shape about it. Lots of people are seen as strange doesn't mean there is anything wrong about them. I mean look where I'm posting this. Really.
For the first time in a long time I've been happy to be me and to be the way I am.
Overall, there has been ups and downs but at least I feel like I'm moving forward now. I'm sure there are going to be posts from me when I'm feeling like crap and posts where I'm walking on sunshine but personally I'm just going to try and keep rolling forward.
Ok enough of the uplifting self reflection stuff. Time to go get some sleep and kick the ass out of tomorrow.
So I leave you with this:
The Apartment:
My apartment is still pretty awesome. No noisy neighbors, clean, safe building, with a good super. Given there's a couple of oddities like how the taps on my kitchen sink are backwards (the hot is on the right). But overall it's a nice place. I know I could be doing much worse. Now if only I could find French bread pizzas at the supermarket. Really the only thing I truly miss is my cat, Kelvin, but he's in very good hands so I know he is happy.
School:
I survived the first week of school. My profs don't sound or look too bad but it's still very early in the semester. But I do think we're off to a good start...I hope. As everyone who has been reading my blog knows I have been trying to make sure that this school year is nothing like my year at Queen's and the last time I lived in Canada.
For those who haven't been reading my blog, here's the short story:
Came to Canada to go to Queen's University in Kingston, ON about 3 1/2 years ago. But due to my lack of fitting in with 99% of the student population, having the dorm floor from hell, a bunch of previous unresolved issues with depression and anxiety from my youth, and a really unreasonable class schedule, I had a complete and utter mental breakdown.
So hence the careful self monitoring I do on a daily basis so that those issues don't come up again because really I want to get undergrad done and move on. Most likely to grad school and beyond.
Social Stuff:
To make sure that the above doesn't happen again I made a big priority to be social as I can up here but to also be social with real people, not just those who are looking for something in return.
Of course where is better place to meet those kind of people then right here on SG! It has been awesome to meet and hang so many cool folks from the site.
On a side note, I love you people very much but please do not send me a friendship request if I have never talked to you before. Comment on one of my journal posts at least or have a discussion with me in one of the groups to show that you are interested in conversing with me and not just a friend collector.
Mental Health:
So far I think my depression and anxieties are still in check. Which I think is largely due to two things: First off I'm not in the toxic environment my mother created. Secondly, I've started to live more with a confident view of myself. I am who I am and yes I'm strange as hell and rub a lot of people the wrong way some how but there's no sense in getting bent out of shape about it. Lots of people are seen as strange doesn't mean there is anything wrong about them. I mean look where I'm posting this. Really.
For the first time in a long time I've been happy to be me and to be the way I am.
Overall, there has been ups and downs but at least I feel like I'm moving forward now. I'm sure there are going to be posts from me when I'm feeling like crap and posts where I'm walking on sunshine but personally I'm just going to try and keep rolling forward.
Ok enough of the uplifting self reflection stuff. Time to go get some sleep and kick the ass out of tomorrow.
So I leave you with this:
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i allready miss toronto. haha
how are you doing?