jackmcginnis

I don't know what I would do if I couldn't laugh at myself. See I've been pondering this whole coffee shop girl thing. Of course the part that frightens me is that I'm not desperate to chase after her like I usually am with almost every female I've thought is attractive. I mean that should be a good thing right? Being able to do the dance and not be desperate and there by avoiding all kinds of hurt if my mating plumage is up to par.

But see there's the trouble I'm not sure if I even want to do the whole mating plumage dance right now. I think in giving up the desperateness I also kind of gave up the idea that I need someone as soon as possible or I'm going to forever be alone and live an incomplete life.

So in trying to keep with the promise of not being a jerk, I don't want to lead on a freshly dumped girl only to say at the last minute "oops not really interested in dating you, sorry." Of course the most likely outcome will be that I've miss read the situation and little miss coffee shop girl moves on to bigger better things. Which really wouldn't be too unexpected from my point of view.

In the mean time I've been re-reading High Fidelity by Nick Hornby. It's one of my favorite books of all time because it combines music and screwy relationships into one story and oddly the movie version of it wasn't too bad. I think they did a great job of moving the location from England to Chicago.

Even with that fun situation things aren't bad on my end or at least I'm not letting myself perceive them as bad. I'm just having fun laughing at myself.