Wednesday Jun 14, 2006

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my pay came through early so now iam finally eating
what a piece of madness that was and what new dirlium food deprivation does
i just became really slow
like a really old decripet apathetic droog
horrible
still its only soup from a seven eleven but it tates like the best thing ive ever eaten ever !!!
also now that my brain has dried out and...
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pudding:

you should come out to california...

Tuesday Jun 13, 2006

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i have totally fucked up
its like over the long weekend, well like thursday night friday saturday sunday and monday
i have been totally getting wasted everynight somewhere or other to fill the void to numb myself to just fuckin forget shit happens like this
and anyway all those e's and drinks and entry charges and taxis and i totally spent every drop of...
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marni:

yes we should! i thought a night out on the town would cheer me up but it only made me realise how lonely i was. i have lost my appetite, you can have my food.

marni:

i can't do anything this weekend because i have a date with the d r e s s [my marking is on monday]. i am totally down to have a crazy no-sleep-til-monday kind of weekend next week. it might involve karaoke!

Saturday Jun 10, 2006

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the most important thing now are life rafts, ambition and a sense of adventure
shipwreakes are only bad if you obsess over the ship
here is an entire ocean and 360 degrees direction
if i dog paddle i might even make it to an island
with coconuts and girls in hula hoops
guagain never had it so good
marni:

i like that.

ps i spied you the other night, opposite the mca. you looked merry.

magentahh:

you watched Titanic last nite on TV i take it? hehe
that why you should fly - at least if you crash into water you will die instantly and not know about it.. freezing to death in the Atlantic is not my idea of a peaceful death

Friday Jun 09, 2006

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i have just fallen so hard that my feelings are still drifting somewhere beyond where i have landed
and iam curious from exquistite pain and detachment to that pain that i think iam in disbelief of self observing myself within a mesh of overpowering agony
like i have been exploded into a multitude of bits and able to comprehend the scale of this but incapable...
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bridehead:

eeek

pudding:

what happened sweetheart?

Wednesday May 24, 2006

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holy fuck
sparklehorse covering wish you were here
its i right now

and
then im zippin off to monster children
to stomp (and shiver )
and romp (and drink)
late im late im late
white rabbitting up all the oxygen
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janemillicent:

So what's with the continuing Wonderland motif? You know Lewis Carroll was just a little too interested in small girls for me to take the subtext innocently...

marni:

that was so unnecessary.

Monday May 22, 2006

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The time has come Oysters and Walruses and Carpenters and bits of ceiling wax

Iam going to rant with the utmost of egotistical self righteousness about.... painting

yeehaaaaaaaaaaa

Despite the horrible clich
- and I cringe when I hear other painters say this
I do feel at a loss, a self damning unexplainable loss, when I havent painted for a while.
Its like I start to...
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oren:

Thank you! smile And ooooh good luck with your new job! Does it pay more? biggrin

lemuria:

it sounds to me like youre channeling. i agree that is an amazing state to reach. and something kind of like finishing a good book and wanting more. then you must find new ways to achieve it again. like a different route. youre lucky to have found your niche. kiss

Saturday May 20, 2006

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countless batterings and blue patches
i must have fallen over alot more than i felt
saturday night home
in total recovery mode
that is
cold and hungry and uncertain as to departure time
my brain is gradually slipping away each time i go out
the fluids are certainly fermented
spent some time unpicking the cat from my clothes
it has a habit of clinging
but...
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magentahh:

oh dear i really do think it will be too much effort.. i have no interest in stalking roundabouts on foggy nights living in fear of being attacked by aboriginals, members of the local greens party or other unwanted vagabonds or drunkards on the way home from the pub. Do roundabouts even have any kind of significance? i know if i stalked people at crossroads they might think i was the goddess Hecate and be somewhat fearful and believing.. but i have never heard of a roundabout thing before. Besides.. even if i was successful in pulling someone over.. one isnt likely to really get bags of gold or coin anymore are they? all i would be lucky to get is a few bits of plastic (and i am not into credit card fraud unfortunatly otherwise it would solve my problem entirely) and some cheapass imitation bling which could be easily bought from a $2 stall at the markets on a sunday anyway... frown
plus the helmet would ruin the hair.

loretta:

haha I totally agree with you. Sports are jusr plain boring.
I really can't understan the fascination about it. I really can't

Friday May 19, 2006

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i have decided in this splendid state of enebriation blah blah that i totally really do not communiacate with humans that well.
iam so bad at small talk
its like a bauhaus song i once use to really like
small talk stinks
but then its like
charisma man
fuck
talk to people even if you really couldny give a fuck about their tiny spoted lives...
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severus:

Thanks for the fox story! biggrin

_elichrusos:

If you could explain to me the difference between numbers one and seven?

I'm not so big on partners.

Thursday May 18, 2006

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seems soon iam about to become a full time maker of gold things
obstensibly to allow the fiscal pieces feed me to continue painting
its a hard life for little fish all the same
hiding out from hunters and swipers and countless low level trawlers
to think before i recognised the shallow dark horror and wicked simplistic ways of the world i wanted only to...
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Monday May 15, 2006

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how to dig yourself out of a hole ?
seems to be a fucking misnomer
trip fall crawl scurry fling scamper leap
into maybe
but fuck this digging out shit
however i did just this
fingernails and teeth and a sharpened pencil
or rather a black mouse and a pen and paper
now i stare at said hole
sniggerlike
it only comes up to my toes...
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steven:

An oubliette. Great place to write one's thoughts.

loretta:

hmmm yeah, maybe I should. But I like icecream loads better!

Friday May 12, 2006

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Ich kann dem Boden glauben, ber meinen Kopf zu fallen und whrend ich in einen leeren gesagten Bett OH- Brunnen genug klettere. Ich wei, da es berschu ist - noch hafte ich ich wei nicht an, wo sonst ich hinausgehen kann darber... ich kann dem Boden glauben, ber meinen Kopf zu fallen zu sehen, das Meer mchte mich nehmen, den das Messer mich schneiden mchte, Sie...
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anx:

you should have this journal in audio form!
I've put up some of my artwork if you are interested?