jackie113272

Lisa called me night before last & she's enjoying her NJ visit....although she said it rained a lot & was kinda shitty for the few first days....but anyway...she is definitely coming up here to see me I guess a couple days after she's back in Cali.
She & I both expressed our anxiousness to see one another again. How cute, huh?!
Wow, I've been taking 2 Xenadrine RFA-1 (ephedra) pills everyday for almost a week now, cuz I'm jogging on my treadmill every morning around 8am....just trying to get toned up & looking perfect again (like I did 3yrs. ago right before my pregnancy!) ....it turns out it takes a bit longer to work off any extra lovin' once you've had a kid...and I'm finding that out for myself. But I think after a couple more weeks of this routine I'll definitely see more results. So I'm hangin' tough till then.
My son Ryan is doing good....he's so adorable, his favorite thing to say now (he doesn't talk very much yet) is "Let's see"....it is so cute. I'm always helping him put his puzzles together, or play "superman"(put him onto the bottom of my feet & push him up into the air)....he's such a good boy, I got lucky for sure!
Oh, and as for the husband (or whatever he is - hard to say) he is still same ol' same ol'.....not wanting to seek counseling for himself & his issues, or go talk to a shrink together. He doesn't like to talk about anything anymore....it is so frustrating for me to stay here around him. He's boring & always angry about some stupid thing....I'm (and have been for several months) ready to find my own life, without him.
I'm starting to think of ideas - I may just move to La Jolla (San Diego)....live on my own & split custody of Ryan 50/50. I'm not at all a mean bitch....I hope he & I can compromise on stuff when I leave. But if he gets mean, I'll stand my ground.
Okay people, gotta go for now....
say hi sometime!

Jackie