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So I am dating my ex-boyfriend's highschool teacher (which I think is funny) and I was really feeling him because he is romantic and I never had anyone treat me romantically before. So last night, I spent the night over his house and I had told him up front that I didn't want to have sex with him. I just told him that I like his company and the way he is affectionate towards me...etc...etc....WELL..........my stupid ass laid in his bed to go to sleep because he told me he wanted to hold me in his arms...etc...etc...so I did and while I was nodding off....ol' dude had snapped my bra a loose and was starting to caress my mommas. So I was getting heated, but I stopped him and told him that this can't happen and maybe I should leave. He begged me to stay and as I was falling asleep again.....he started to pull my pants down. He kept on whispering in my ear...."I want to make love to you....I want to make love to you..." and it was getting me wett so I finally gave in. THAT WAS THE WRONG FUCKING THING TO DO!!! GIRLS LEARN FROM ME! I haven't had much experience nor sex in a while so I am tight as hell. I tell him repeatedly that he is hurting me and he stops for a while and then starts to bang the shit out of me again.... He then flips me on my stomach and pushes me into the mattress and hits me from behind really hard to the point where I started crying and asking him to please stop. All he keeps saying is..."I will go softer...I'm sorry..." well he doesn't know what fucking soft means. I finally moved so that he would stop and he starts yelling about how sorry he is after he sees me crying. I told him to take me home and then he has the nerves to say..." Don't leave me please. Why do you want to go and hurt my feeling like that?" Of course I looked at him like he was crazy and said, "What about my feelings!!!".......
I guess it's my fault that it all happened. He did ask me if I was crying during the first range of minutes we were having sex, but I tried to act like a champ and told him that it was just sweat. I'm such a dumb ass!! Maybe he would have stopped then if I would have told him the truth.
The funny thing is...I don't want to let go of him. I want to give him another try. He comforts me in so many ways that I would risk some bodily pain..even though I'm ashamed......what a lost girl I am huh? I just want to be loved......


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till next time chickies.......