ivyllamas

Hi people...

I really don't want to write nothing here. But... I think I have to explain my feelings outside.

I'm under a big big big depression. My life haven't sense. I have lost everything. I was thinking in to leave the photography... I love it... but my mind is really fucked. In one month I lost everything that made my life have a mininum sense.

I had problems with drugs too... I guess it would be one of the detonators. Everything is black. I can't sleep because I'm afraid to dream. I'm sleepeng around 4 o 5 hours every day.

I was thinking in leave SG. The new system is no good for european photographers. I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I don't know if I have to take some "normal" work and forget this last years. And I don't want to forget this years because I was not right... These last years was the best years on my life. And this makes me feel really sad.

I can't see myself on the mirror without crying hours and hours. I'm a loser. In this moment... my live have no sense.

I want to agree everybody that support my work. I think that I'll stop to write... beacuse I'm crying again.

I'm tired.



Forever yours my friends.