Ive been listening to this song, "Cico Buff" by the Cocteau Twins on repeat for like a month. I havent the slightest idea of what she's saying but it's such a cool song.
So its my birthday this weekend and Im completely not excited. Im turning 21 and I feel like Im having a mid life crisis. Im sitting here listening to a song I dont understand, drinking, and typing about how much I dislike birthdays. Well, let me take that back...it's not so much that I dislike bdays it's just that Im not used to them
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haha no, as a child I was always a cynical kid that discredited my parent's santa claus sightings and tooth fairy's donations. I never had like a classic childhood where I did cute things like leave cookies out for Santa or pray for a little brother...I always told the other kids that Santa Claus wasnt real. haha...I even tell my nephew to his dismay.
Anyway, so Ive never had a real bday. My parents were always working/traveling and Im used to that so it's not a big deal to me. So yeah, Im turning 21- a milestone- and I can't think of anything to do...I know a huge part of that is due to me being "21" since I was 19 so Ive been desensitized in that regard. I guess I wont have the anxiety now of being caught every time the bouncer stares at my Virginia license but then Ive never been caught so it's all been good.
Lately Ive been bombarded by my friend's requests of Vegas, parties, and roadtrips. Of my little network of friends, I am the youngest and therefor the last to turn 21. Most of my friends rent out penthouses to the Bellagio and spend drunken days lounging poolside at Rehab so they want me to go all out...the truth is I dont know how to. I dont even know what to do. Im so used to the idea of my birthday being just another day that I havent the slighest notion of what birthday protocol entails.
If it were up to me Id fly to Paris for the weekend but the time zone difference would kill that. lol....ANy ideas?
So its my birthday this weekend and Im completely not excited. Im turning 21 and I feel like Im having a mid life crisis. Im sitting here listening to a song I dont understand, drinking, and typing about how much I dislike birthdays. Well, let me take that back...it's not so much that I dislike bdays it's just that Im not used to them
waa waa waa
haha no, as a child I was always a cynical kid that discredited my parent's santa claus sightings and tooth fairy's donations. I never had like a classic childhood where I did cute things like leave cookies out for Santa or pray for a little brother...I always told the other kids that Santa Claus wasnt real. haha...I even tell my nephew to his dismay.
Anyway, so Ive never had a real bday. My parents were always working/traveling and Im used to that so it's not a big deal to me. So yeah, Im turning 21- a milestone- and I can't think of anything to do...I know a huge part of that is due to me being "21" since I was 19 so Ive been desensitized in that regard. I guess I wont have the anxiety now of being caught every time the bouncer stares at my Virginia license but then Ive never been caught so it's all been good.
Lately Ive been bombarded by my friend's requests of Vegas, parties, and roadtrips. Of my little network of friends, I am the youngest and therefor the last to turn 21. Most of my friends rent out penthouses to the Bellagio and spend drunken days lounging poolside at Rehab so they want me to go all out...the truth is I dont know how to. I dont even know what to do. Im so used to the idea of my birthday being just another day that I havent the slighest notion of what birthday protocol entails.
If it were up to me Id fly to Paris for the weekend but the time zone difference would kill that. lol....ANy ideas?
It WAS painful. Extraordinary, and if I'd known in advance I wouldn't have done it. Better now though.