I finally ate food for the first time in 3 days. And sadly, I lost 5lbs in those 3 days. I say sadly because weight loss through starvation only reinforces starving yourself as a good way to lose weight. I almost had an anxiety attack after eating a simple whole wheat wrap with lettuce, spinach, and mushrooms. Not exactly food that would make you put on any weight but just panic at the feeling of having food in me. After I ate it, I wanted to get it out of me, much like a bulimic would but I didn't. I thought I was over it after spending a month at home where I was always cooking vegetarian dinners for the family, but obviously I'm not. I know anorexia has a very high relapse rate, so I'm not that surprised that I reverted back to it. It's probably something I'll be dealing with for the rest of my life. I find it addicting stepping on the scale every morning and seeing that number lower than it was the day before. Anyway... I also managed to break the side mirror off my car today, I knew I was gonna hit that fence post. But I was able to reattach it, so everything's good. At least it is as far as the car is concerned.
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