ugh guys I'm going nuts. I want to be a good friend to this person, but we used to fuck for a quick minute. Almost an item and then I blew by moving too quick. I fell for her like a star or some bullshit cliche like that. She's convinced I love the idea of her and shit like that. Maybe afraid of being hurt I dunno maybe just afraid. I dunno. But they are so amazing and no one is ever good to them. I want to at least be good to them. I want to be their friend if I can. But I can't kill my emotions yet. IT probably just takes time. I'm sure soon just being able to make them happy and being able to listen to them when everyone else is trying to kill them or jump in their pants... soon this will be enough? I just want to be a good person. I feel this gnarly fuckltooad of love for them and would be sad if I lost a way to express it.
I wish I could show her I was differnt but the best I can do is to sit back and give a shit.
I guess it feels fine really.