itzjusme

I think pictures make journal entries more interesting. Then if a person is too lazy to read all the boring shit I have to say...then they can comment on my dumb ass picture. The picture above is of me when I was 15. Whateva.
i am upset. There are a number of things contributing to the fact that my moods are cycling so fast lately. I do not appreciate it muc. It seems that it changes DAILY lately. I am now on Armour thyroid. I don't feel much different...but it is not expected that i should. I feel a little dizzy and my heart rate jumps a bit. I tried to work out today but I really couldn't. Not only do I have a HUGE bruise on my arm...which makes certain machines impossible to use(granted i know i could do other things) but i seem to get really dizzy.
Maybe i'll try again this afternoon.
I still don't have a shower. It's been a week....the floor in the bathroom is being remodeled so i have to use my neighbors guest bathroom shower....REALLY ANNOYING!!!! I like to take showers at odd hours...now i can't.
Well...I hope that I start to feel manic soon....although hoping for that is just hoping for another one of these days. fuck. oh well.
And....I'm pretty lonely right now. My relationship is going to shit....who am i kidding? it's been there for 5 years now. the first year was the only good year. ugh
Plus....my 15-year-old brother's court date is coming up soon.....(for stealing)...he is really suicidal...he even told me he has access to guns and he has considered doing it. Everyday he tells me something scarier. I want to help him and it's so hard.
Hope you all are doing better than I am. I know that it could be worse though. It always could be worse- and it has been. gotta be thankful for that.