Start orientation for work on Wednesday. PAID orientation. HELLYES. only a few hours, but paid so I feel like it is progress. I have all the tests done. The TB test. The fingerprinting. I am so productive lately. 
Now I just need to find a place to live. I am looking at places all the time...I just want to find a place where I will...
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Now I just need to find a place to live. I am looking at places all the time...I just want to find a place where I will... Read More
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smuffy:
Well hello there stranger! 
1aura1:
why kinda job is it?
OMG...I skipped a day of updating. WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME? 
Last night I went to go see choleraflood's band ZAMORA and another friend's band QUIETROOM in San Mateo at a Billard's place. I saw a bunch of people who I hadn't seen in a long, long time. It was nice.
Afterwards, I went to a party with some friends where a lot of...
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Last night I went to go see choleraflood's band ZAMORA and another friend's band QUIETROOM in San Mateo at a Billard's place. I saw a bunch of people who I hadn't seen in a long, long time. It was nice.
Afterwards, I went to a party with some friends where a lot of...
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funktion:
don't worry about missing the bbq, there will be more things im sure 
glad things are moving along for you and im sure it will smooth out soon
have a good one
glad things are moving along for you and im sure it will smooth out soon
have a good one
gravesforthedays:
hope everything gets better for you, I hate stress and drama...Blah!
Be strong!
Be strong!
I had a lot of fun tonight. I went with my friend with my friend "swagger" to the local bar and hung out with some friends. I saw a bunch of people I hadn't seen in a while....a bunch I had...and just was able to chill. I was sober but it was fun.
Before we went to the bar we stopped by the group home...
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Before we went to the bar we stopped by the group home...
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alicetrip:
it seriously seems like there has been a huge improvement for you since thr break, its like there is a new tone in your writing. i actually go to trader joes once every 2 weeks lol.
i feel you on the lonely thing. there is a guy at school that i've been admireing from a far cuz well, let's face it...i'm
...yup, i'm chicken in the worst way.
did everything seem ok with your brother?
it seriously seems like there has been a huge improvement for you since thr break, its like there is a new tone in your writing. i actually go to trader joes once every 2 weeks lol.
i feel you on the lonely thing. there is a guy at school that i've been admireing from a far cuz well, let's face it...i'm
...yup, i'm chicken in the worst way.
did everything seem ok with your brother?
the_gentleman:
Hmmm...yep, I leave you to your own devices for a week or so and return...and damn it you're still hot.
Glad to hear things are semi better. Hope it keeps on the incline.
Glad to hear things are semi better. Hope it keeps on the incline.
going in to fill out paperwork for the new job today. tomorrow going to look at a studio apartment five minutes away from my school( a little expensive- but maybe i can swing it with the new job) still single...break up is still aching....somewhat managing...feeling ugly but i'm getting by. i miss my friends. i miss my life. but at least i'm working in the...
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polly:
dude, your testimonial almost made me cry. i love you, too.
but you know that already.
but you know that already.
alicetrip:
1)you're not ugly
2)i feel you on the break-up thing
3)good luck on the apt.
2)i feel you on the break-up thing
3)good luck on the apt.
OK GUYS! The job called me today and I meet with them tomorrow to fill out paperwork. YAY. The pay isn't wonderful but it's better than most people I know so I'm not complaining. It's because I'm not out of college yet and I don't have all the ECE credits they normally would like people to have in order to hire them. I just have...
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funktion:
yea!!! im glad things are starting to move in a positive direction. life, ya know
are you still coming in saturday?
are you still coming in saturday?
polly:
congrats on the job! i knew you'd get it.
So...That job I've wanted for like a month or so....I was giving up on it....and then I got another e-mail from them...GOD AM I CONFUSED. am i wrong or is this taking forever?
"Hey Lauren! I am so sorry. I have been in Tampa for the last week at
a Conference and just got back in this morning. I will have our
recruitment coordinator give...
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"Hey Lauren! I am so sorry. I have been in Tampa for the last week at
a Conference and just got back in this morning. I will have our
recruitment coordinator give...
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deathhippie:
On a side note, call them.
moongoddess:
They are going to hire you, don't worry! The same thing happened when I was trying to get a job at Borders (except it didn't take so long). They just have to confirm that you did really work for those people. If you have to I would contact them (former employers) letting them know you need to confirm your employment for your new job.
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earthbeard:
i do try, i do try.
arsenic:
awww... my poor angel.. 
I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time... I've been in your spot before and it sucked. The urgency of it all just gets to you and you end up feeling hopeless and alone. My best advice to you is to take it all one step at a time. Dont think of everything you have to do at once, because you'll drive yourself mad trying to do it all at once. Also, remember that everything happens for a reason, and something better always comes along just when you think there is nothing left. I'll always behere to talk to you if or when you need me. I know all you want to do is curl up in a corner and cry yourself to sleep never to wake up... but you are so much better than that. Always remember how wonderful and special you are. All of us are here for you 110%, all you have to do is call on us when you need us.
Woot.. try to smile, because youre so beautiful when you do.
I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time... I've been in your spot before and it sucked. The urgency of it all just gets to you and you end up feeling hopeless and alone. My best advice to you is to take it all one step at a time. Dont think of everything you have to do at once, because you'll drive yourself mad trying to do it all at once. Also, remember that everything happens for a reason, and something better always comes along just when you think there is nothing left. I'll always behere to talk to you if or when you need me. I know all you want to do is curl up in a corner and cry yourself to sleep never to wake up... but you are so much better than that. Always remember how wonderful and special you are. All of us are here for you 110%, all you have to do is call on us when you need us.
Woot.. try to smile, because youre so beautiful when you do.
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speed_metal:
Thanks everyone that's helping me prove to this girl that she's super cool, and super Haaawwwwt!!
delusion:
thanks!
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My landlord is such a jackass. (insert donkey/jackass smilie here) 
They both are. They make me so angry my fucking stomach burns every time I see them. God.
Fuck they have screwed me royally.
Polly said said on June 12, 2004 09:32 AM " i always had fun with you when i'd walk in the door at midnight and you'd yell my name and fall...
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They both are. They make me so angry my fucking stomach burns every time I see them. God.
Fuck they have screwed me royally.
Polly said said on June 12, 2004 09:32 AM " i always had fun with you when i'd walk in the door at midnight and you'd yell my name and fall...
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chrisnail_and_i:
*punches stupid landlords in their bums*
thepenismightier:
I lucked out with my landlord, he is the first landlord I have ever had. He is crazy but he is easy to get along with. Long as the yard stays mowed and the rent gets paid I never see him.
My brother ran away from the group home today. Good lord how much drama is in my life. I feel horrible. He is totally fucking himself over. I feel for him I really do...but a lot of the stuff he has been doing lately has been out of character. I am so worried about him. man am i worried.
I want to help & i...
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timore:
It does not seem selfish at all that you are concerned with personal problems now. I know how it feels to have to seperate yourself from everyone and their problems and focus on your own life. Good luck girl.
kosomot:
I'll provide the sugarcoating. you just get your shit together
Kos
Kos
My life is kicking me in the ass. Fuck depression, fuck money$$ and FUCK YOU. (well....take back that last part.- i still love you)
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funktion:
yup this crazy bitch called life can do that to ya! it will smooth out and then go on some crazy cycle. hey this reminds me of a Jem song!!
Magically wise words of Jem to the rescue!!!!
Magically wise words of Jem to the rescue!!!!
emjmd:
We still love ya too. Here for you to vent when you need it.