ittykay

why does it seem... that everything just keeps goingn WRONG.. keeps getting worse...

like over the weekend i was sick.. so i barely have enough money to make ends meet.... i dont mind having my best friend live with me.. it does mean i'm supporting her until she gets paid from her new job.. which is stressing me out more and more because its less and less money that i have... we havent gone grocery shopping in weeks... i'm usually just eatting cereal.. whih hasnt helped the fact that i'm sick lol... no nutrieants to get better on... i need hours desperately.. and all i ask was for her to go with me because the farm is uber spooky late at night... she didnt have to do anything but sit... she said she would go i reminded her a few times before she left to go out with her guy... she doesnt get home til almost one AM and now she's "Waaay to tired".... i was SO frustrated!!!!!!!!!!! i finally went by myself... and had to be there til 3:30am just so that i could have 7 hours yesterday... but because of that and having popped a ligament in my shoulder i had a migraine headache by the time i got home.. didnt want to have to crawl over her in bed and be squished agianst the wall so i tried sleeping on the floor downstairs just to wake up ever half hour until i decided at 6:30 i had it and went upstairs to bed......

sooo much pain and such a horrible headache i kept feeling like i was going to throw up... then she wakes me up 3 or 4 times or more i dont even really remember what the heck for and what she was asking me.. my brain hurt to much to comprehend... i feel a little bad though cuz i dont know what i s aid to her.. all i know is there was shit loads of noise (migraines for me make EVERYTHING 100TIMES louder) and i am already a horrible grumpy person to wake up...lol so waking me up when i feel like my head and shoulder are going to expload or i'm goingn to rip them off myself, and then noises just makes me even worse... who knows what i said or did.. i've known her forever though she should know better than to try waking me up if i refuse the first time.. especially if she doesnt know what time i went to bed.

lol my poor father refuses to wake me up anymore since iw as about 16.... i've done everything from throw shit to tell him i hated him and the family... and not even really realized it until i was told what i did lol... so he refuses to wake me up anymore.. thats what i have an alarm clock for.

This one time my dad sent my little brother in to wake me up... my lil brother almost got kicked in the tender areas... lol the next day i was actually half awake i heard my dad tell him to wake me and he said "NUH UH i'm not waking her she's dangerous she kicks and she doesnt even know it!"

bah.. anyway this is the first time my head or anything has felt stable enough to sit at the computer... i've felt dizzy and like i was sgoingn to throw up everytime i stood up or walked.. so yeah.. needless to say i havent even gotten to work today... looks like i'll be goingn in EARLY saturday morning before my bf gets his son (if he gets his son) and late saturday night.. and sometime on sunday as well to try and make up time... hopefully i'll get 8+hours of work in tomorrow.. if my boss hasnt gotten fed up and done my work for me... i hope not..

off to find somethign to sip on.. tummy not feelingso great agian
sorry for all the bitching.. its just been one of those days.