itsabecky

so i've been doing a lot of thinking lately about things. my friend situation mostly. since i moved away 2 months ago things have changed a lot more than i thought they would. i kind of feel like they're not my friends anymore and we just hang out once a week or so out of obligation. and as a result that makes me feel very lonely. this is really the forst time in 5 years where i havent had a boyfriend; the first time in i dont know how long that i dont have any real friends either. all i have is my sister and my brother in-law. and they're almost always at work so i rarely ever see them. i spend a lot of time by myself. really the only time that i'm around people is when i'm at work and i think that's why i love my job so much. i'm an incredibly social person and not having all of the people around that i used to talk to is really depressing me. but with the exception of 2 girls that i dont like everyone at work is either 17 or 30. i'm going back to school in either january or april and on one hand i cant wait. going back to school will be a great way to meet new people. but i'm kind of afraid that i wont really be around people my age. i think i'm just stressing out too much ond over thinking things.