itchium

Well i think in my last update i said i was thro with drinking, sorry everyone i lied. I don't like lieing to poeple i really don't, and i don't like always having to hide my feelings from them. I hate it all right now, having to hide everything from them, not telling them at all about how i feel. I',m going to tell ya'll something not very many poeple know at all, i hate being alone. As long as i've been alone i hate it, I've been alone for over 20 years which is sad i admit. It's the only thing i've ever know at all. well i'm going to drink some more, "mask" eveything i feel so no one would know and get drunk hopefully so hopfully i'd forget but that never happens