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So in the spirit of sharing, here's an ugly truth about myself: I tend to measure my success against other people's failure. There, I said it. I kind of liken it to skipping out on all the assignments in class and just doing the extra credit because as we all know, the extra credit is way easier. The more people fail, the better I feel and consequently the less effort I feel I have to put into things. I'm not saying I'm exactly proud of this particular personality flaw but denying it certainly isn't going to make it go away. And let's face it, I know this trait isn't exclusive to me.

However, lately I've become aware of someone who has all the skills and tools to rip this world a new asshole, and otherwise possessing just about everything I envy, bemoaning their station in life. Normally this sort of thing would bring a glimmer of hope to me, but in this case I got angry.

I don't know what's come over me. I'd like to think that I'm changing for the better, and that as I get older I'm also getting a little wiser. But I don't think that's the case because just this very afternoon I told a visitor at work that they'd have to go to one of the other buildings and get an access badge from security to gain admittance to the building he wanted into when I could have let him in the whole time. I simply waited for him to walk a few paces away and I scanned my badge and walked into the building right in front of him.

Well, there you have it. Make of it whatever you want. Slam me if you want to but it won't make your ugly little secret any smaller.

Let the red-ass beatdown commence,
R. Valco

PS. I don't know what it is but I've noticed that I'm really attracted to girls with long eyelashes. Weird.