You know those giant red PANIC buttons? The ones that you only press in emergencies? Yeah, someone find me one of those and fucking push it already. Because I am in panic mode. There were developments, things happened.
Dani. Oh, Dani. Danielle. Oh my.
There's this distinct possibility that I agreed to go with her to Dragon Con. She's going to book the hotel room come this Thursday. So I have a few days to freak out and panic. Before I have to tell her one way or the other.
See this is a good thing right? I mean, I love this girl. I know I do. SHE knows I do. Yeah she found that out. Interesting conversation that one. Anyway. Good lord. This has done things to my head. I am vexed, nervous, twitchy, flighty. Flustered. Completely and utterly flustered.
It means a night. Alone. With her. There will be fun had at the Con. Then dancing and drinking, because she loves doing it. And good lord. The what ifs and possibilities.
Oh fuck me. I just toted up some what ifs. Not even an hour ago I told someone you can't sweat the what ifs. You see what this girl does to me? What am I doing?
WHAT AM I DOING?! OH GOD! PANIC! FLAIL! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay okay. Whew. I feel a bit more calm. Wait. That's a lie. Someone slap me please.
Alright, so the plan. I drive from here to Knoxville, pick her up. Not a problem. Oh wait. I don't have a license. Why did I agree to this? What was I thinking. Oh well, not a problem. I'll get my license. I have a month to get it. That's fine. Plenty of time.
The money though. That is a different matter. Maybe I'll get enough from unemployment. What if I think I will but then don't? Shit. More what ifs.
Lets look at this rationally. I love this girl. I have the chance to do something I've wanted, go to Dragon Con, and to hang out with this chick I think is absolutely amazing. Why am I freaking out? All I have to do is get the money and my license. Simple. Easy. Make the goals, get the steps done.
I want this to happen.
I want to spend that day with her.
I want to be her hero.
Just once. Please. Someone. Anyone? Can I have this. The one thing I want. I don't ask for a whole lot. I try to accept what I'm handed. I don't know how to be selfish a lot of the time. But this time. Please. Oh please. Can I?
Someone hit the button for me. Panic mode is hearby engaged.
Oh, I also need a steampunk outfit to wear.
Can't forget that.
Can you hear the alarms blaring yet?
-JC
Dani. Oh, Dani. Danielle. Oh my.
There's this distinct possibility that I agreed to go with her to Dragon Con. She's going to book the hotel room come this Thursday. So I have a few days to freak out and panic. Before I have to tell her one way or the other.
See this is a good thing right? I mean, I love this girl. I know I do. SHE knows I do. Yeah she found that out. Interesting conversation that one. Anyway. Good lord. This has done things to my head. I am vexed, nervous, twitchy, flighty. Flustered. Completely and utterly flustered.
It means a night. Alone. With her. There will be fun had at the Con. Then dancing and drinking, because she loves doing it. And good lord. The what ifs and possibilities.
Oh fuck me. I just toted up some what ifs. Not even an hour ago I told someone you can't sweat the what ifs. You see what this girl does to me? What am I doing?
WHAT AM I DOING?! OH GOD! PANIC! FLAIL! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay okay. Whew. I feel a bit more calm. Wait. That's a lie. Someone slap me please.
Alright, so the plan. I drive from here to Knoxville, pick her up. Not a problem. Oh wait. I don't have a license. Why did I agree to this? What was I thinking. Oh well, not a problem. I'll get my license. I have a month to get it. That's fine. Plenty of time.
The money though. That is a different matter. Maybe I'll get enough from unemployment. What if I think I will but then don't? Shit. More what ifs.
Lets look at this rationally. I love this girl. I have the chance to do something I've wanted, go to Dragon Con, and to hang out with this chick I think is absolutely amazing. Why am I freaking out? All I have to do is get the money and my license. Simple. Easy. Make the goals, get the steps done.
I want this to happen.
I want to spend that day with her.
I want to be her hero.
Just once. Please. Someone. Anyone? Can I have this. The one thing I want. I don't ask for a whole lot. I try to accept what I'm handed. I don't know how to be selfish a lot of the time. But this time. Please. Oh please. Can I?
Someone hit the button for me. Panic mode is hearby engaged.
Oh, I also need a steampunk outfit to wear.
Can't forget that.
Can you hear the alarms blaring yet?
-JC
I fully endorse this.
I think they sell panic buttons in japan actually.
Seriously, you've got this far, this HAS to happen. I wish you the best man, you're doing what a lot of us other guys wish we could do.
PS. any tips?