life is such a strange thing. i think for the first time in a while im learning new things about myself and my life and how i carry myself. specifically i've learned a lot about myself in the way of romantic endevors. my girlfriend and i just arent working out, but i've learned a lot about myself and relationships from her and my experiences. it's hard to learn about your faults, but if i didnt learn about them then how would i ever improve myself? i've learned that i can come off as being very rough or abbrasive... that sometimes i just dont notice subtle things that i probably should notice too. at the same time i've learned about what i should expect from a significant other as well and once again things to watch out for. i dunno, for a while i was dying to meet someone that i'd be happy with, but i've since realized that i'm probably not ready for such a relationship, both at my present state and due to the complete lack of time as well. ive also noticed that ive been abnormally moody lately too. i know why too... i just need to make an effort to stop it. an old mentor gave me the analogy of looking at life from inside a fishbowl and looking at it from the outside. for the first time in a while i'm looking at it form outside the fish bowl, and to be blunt it needs some cleaning. well... at least i'm still able to realize these things about myself.. i think when everything here is all said and done ill hopefully have become a better person in the end.
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"for a while i was dying to meet someone that i'd be happy with"
I take it you were already happy and seeking to share your happiness?