Im thinking about breaking up with this girl i've been seeing lately. im not happy. she went to cali and i havent seen her in a good week and a half, and she doesnt seem to be in a hurry to see me. kinda feels like a hint, doesnt it? i dunno, im really not attached to her, but im just scared of getting hurt in the end. although i dont see that happening. i think its more of the fact that i just wish id meet someone that i was truely happy with. i dont feel alone, its just that im lonely because i want to feel a certain way about someone again. one of those things where you dont miss the person, you miss the feeling. in all truth, i dont think shes happy either and i think she feels the same way too.. but i dont think she'll have the balls to end it, or ovaries at it may be.
on a random side note, college sucks! i want out!!!
on a random side note, college sucks! i want out!!!
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i say if you don't feel totally happy with someone....why waste your time. Especially if it's something fresh. It's more understandable to start feeling that way if you've been in the same tiresome relationship for years or something. I'm pretty slow at getting into any sort of committed relationship...so when doing so...i have to really...ReALLY be feeling the person on all kinds of levels and know they're feeling the same way too. i haven't had the butterflies for anyone in like a year...and yeah it sucks...but i don't want to have to just settle for what's there being offered to me...when it's time for me to fall in love...it'll come looking for me...so in the mean time...i'm just taking a break from it all.