Have you ever looked into the mirror when youre completely shit faced drunk and you have no idea who is looking back at you? It's the strangest thing I've felt in quite a while. I guess it means that I don't know who or what i am sometimes, wheter that be a good or a bad thing. Knowing myself tends to be an elusive mystery. Lately old memories and things about my past I've long forgotten about have come back, and it makes me wonder how realistic the world around me is? Sometimes i really wonder what i would have ended up if i was raised differently? would I have been on my way to death because of a drug addiction? would have i become stronger because of different experiences? ill never know. theres so much Ill never know in this world, and i want to know it all. i dont know what the future holds in store for me, i dont know if things will improve or fall apart. so many uncertainties and yet we still all go on living.. all i can do is follow the path at my feet and hope that it leads to a place where i want to be..
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