irishman4life

well, past year and a half has been the death of me, and i can't believe i am still alive. i have been tested by ex trying to take her life, to daughter loosing her child, and then getting married, and telling me via text message, and then finding out that my fiance had an afair, and now all this drama, her reason was because she was vulnerable and her grandfather died and then she lost her job because she left to goto funeral. she was in texas when it went down, and i can only think, when i deploy how do i know it wont happen again. where are all the faithful woman or has it come down to this in the 21st century where it is okay to cheat on your significant other. i am in such a dark place, just last weekend i found my self out driving trails and at the edge of a cliff, only thing that stopped me, is i can't cause the pain to the ones i love so much. hopefully in time, the right gal would come into my life and be my everything. oh well. rant is over and just wanted to catch my friends i have on here up with why i been so recluse lately, and now yall know why. i do have instagram, lucky_clover81. talk to you all later and have a wonderful end of year!