I woke up this morning terribly missing the girls and California. It has not happen for a while but today it did. I dreamt about them all night long and then this morning I realized how big 1500 miles is.
I know that I had no choice but to do what I did back then but tell my heart that I have not let down...
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I know that I had no choice but to do what I did back then but tell my heart that I have not let down...
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Ramblings
They say that there is suppose to be a way from point a to point b. But what if you dont want to go to point b. What if you want to be just bypass point b. Leave it in the dust of point c.
I am finding when I am in pain for what ever reason (today it is still the back) I...
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They say that there is suppose to be a way from point a to point b. But what if you dont want to go to point b. What if you want to be just bypass point b. Leave it in the dust of point c.
I am finding when I am in pain for what ever reason (today it is still the back) I...
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When I was a little girl, I used to go in the bathroom and swear. I would say a line of curse words softly and under my breath. It gave me a rush. Knowing that I was being a bad girl. The first time I said Bitch in front of my father his eyes turned as if he had been possed by a demon. It...
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Well, guess what I did - yep, as soon as the man went to school with in a few minutes of him leaving I went back to bed and the strange world of dreams that I had the other night came back.
Now I have to do laundry... he complained that he needs clean clothes...
C thank you for all the love and support. You...
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Now I have to do laundry... he complained that he needs clean clothes...
C thank you for all the love and support. You...
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Last night I went to a party. Thank God for the pain pills it allow me to stand and sit with out a ton of pain. So many people there, I think the bar owners were having a great big kaching.
There was a person there. Who I think the only reason was talking to me was to pump information about a friend of mine....
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There was a person there. Who I think the only reason was talking to me was to pump information about a friend of mine....
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charitee:
Oh my goodness my sweet girl!
Ok.. lets break this down by number:
1. The bald headed phreak and Icky Spice are nothing. no one. they have souls that make the spirits weep. Karma, my darling, is a bitch and she will come around to them eventually.
2. As far as a falling out, let them talk. They always will. In the long run, you know who loves you. what others think or say doesn't matter.. not even in the smallest.
3. You, my little bitch (I'm so proud!!) are NO ONES puppet.
4. Stopping a room is more embarrasing that you can even imagine. it's not that great.
5. I love ya!
Ok.. lets break this down by number:
1. The bald headed phreak and Icky Spice are nothing. no one. they have souls that make the spirits weep. Karma, my darling, is a bitch and she will come around to them eventually.
2. As far as a falling out, let them talk. They always will. In the long run, you know who loves you. what others think or say doesn't matter.. not even in the smallest.
3. You, my little bitch (I'm so proud!!) are NO ONES puppet.
4. Stopping a room is more embarrasing that you can even imagine. it's not that great.
5. I love ya!
My back is out! It hurts A LOT. So I am going to take more pain pills and sleep. A beautiful day and I am across the bed like a beached whale... sigh .... such is life.
Peace to all.
B
Peace to all.
B
charitee:
Remind me to kick you later for that comment... 
charitee:
simple reply before bed. I love you too my sweet, sweet girl.
Is it odd that I love the rain. The lightning and the thunder used to scare me so bad and now it fasinates me. I wonder if I am changing because I feel secure in my life at least my marriage. The rest of my life is upside down. I am trying to accept things easier than I did before. I stop worrying that I...
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zippershrine:
Peace and good dreams my friend...I truly miss seeing you and wish you'd come by.
-Z
-Z
charitee:
You're here! Oh my goodness! I miss you like freaking crazy! I feel like I haven't seen you in ages and hate that feeling.
Wanna come sit and sort toys with me? LOL! Cameron get's here on Tuesday night. I get to spend the weekend getting the boys rooms ready. It's actually a fun process, I do it every year.. I sit and play with toys all day.. regression can be fun! lol!
I miss you B.. call... k?
-Me
Wanna come sit and sort toys with me? LOL! Cameron get's here on Tuesday night. I get to spend the weekend getting the boys rooms ready. It's actually a fun process, I do it every year.. I sit and play with toys all day.. regression can be fun! lol!
I miss you B.. call... k?
-Me
The only advise I can give you is the advise my father gave to me. Remember that had you not moved, gotten heathly in both body and mind, and made yourself a happy home you wouldn't be a good mom to them when you have them. And you will have them, I promise you it will happen.
Come over when you feel better. See the boys. Meet Cameron. Come smile and be silly, when you're up to it. We love you and miss you. I know that my children and I can't make up for you missing your girls but we can try.
Love you.