Finally going to see Shael today, we hit a bit of a bump the other day, and I don't know what the hell is going on. A not-so-brief synopsis: Saw him Friday afternoon, took my new roommate up to his house just so I could see him and he could meet Cassie. He was acting weird and being very anti-social, which is unlike him. I don't know what that was about. Told him I would call that night to see if he wanted to do something, I called.... and called, and he never picked up the phone. 
I was wondering at that point what his problem was... or rather what I had done to make him not want to see me. I broke down and called him last night and asked him what was going on. Shael said he hadn't gotten any of my calls because his "cell phone hasn't been working." Now I'm not saying that he's lying, but it just sounds a little odd. Anyway, I asked if he wanted to do something and he told me that him and his friends "weren't doing anything fun" and "it'll probably be really boring." That to me says that he didn't want me to come over. Maybe I'm wrong. I said, well maybe I'll just call you tomorrow since it doesn't sound like you want me to come anyway. He told me I was "over-reacting" and that maybe I should call him tomorrow. I was pissed. But of course, because I am weak, I called him right back to apologize and ask if I could still see him. He didn't answer the phone. I left a message, and until about 15 minutes ago, I hadn't heard from him.
I gave him the benefit of the doubt about his phone not working, and just kept calling incase he hadn't gotten the previous calls. He finally answered, and he's going to call me when he is back to his house. OK. All of this crap wouldn't be a big deal if we had little spats now and then. But we don't, we never have problems like this, so I've been a wreck. I have no appetite and I've cried at least 50 times. Sometimes I wonder if we'll make it through this year or not, and wish I hadn't gotten so attached so quickly, because if this is how I get over little situations, I don't even want to think about us breaking up. I guess I'll have to see what happens when I see him. Last night I thought about everything I wanted to say to him, but I'm sure I'll forget most of it. I hate that. This relationship is stressing me out.
I was wondering at that point what his problem was... or rather what I had done to make him not want to see me. I broke down and called him last night and asked him what was going on. Shael said he hadn't gotten any of my calls because his "cell phone hasn't been working." Now I'm not saying that he's lying, but it just sounds a little odd. Anyway, I asked if he wanted to do something and he told me that him and his friends "weren't doing anything fun" and "it'll probably be really boring." That to me says that he didn't want me to come over. Maybe I'm wrong. I said, well maybe I'll just call you tomorrow since it doesn't sound like you want me to come anyway. He told me I was "over-reacting" and that maybe I should call him tomorrow. I was pissed. But of course, because I am weak, I called him right back to apologize and ask if I could still see him. He didn't answer the phone. I left a message, and until about 15 minutes ago, I hadn't heard from him.
I gave him the benefit of the doubt about his phone not working, and just kept calling incase he hadn't gotten the previous calls. He finally answered, and he's going to call me when he is back to his house. OK. All of this crap wouldn't be a big deal if we had little spats now and then. But we don't, we never have problems like this, so I've been a wreck. I have no appetite and I've cried at least 50 times. Sometimes I wonder if we'll make it through this year or not, and wish I hadn't gotten so attached so quickly, because if this is how I get over little situations, I don't even want to think about us breaking up. I guess I'll have to see what happens when I see him. Last night I thought about everything I wanted to say to him, but I'm sure I'll forget most of it. I hate that. This relationship is stressing me out.
hot chocolate with marshmellows always works. and i was telling pommyjeff, pies always help too. whether they are eatten or thrown