iris1

It's been a lovely bank holiday weekend, full of cocktails, barbeques, cinema trips, friends and the obligatory queueing-for-seven-hours-in-Primark that seems to come with the territory of Bank Holiday Monday.

I am all bank-holidayed out but that doesn't stop me wishing every day could be like today. Life would be just lovely if that were the case, I could deal with that.

A few of you have been asking me what I'm up to these days, where I've been, where I am now, what's going on, etc etc. It's probably about time I stopped being cryptic about it all.

So:-

- I'm living in London again now. This is just fine as I'm surrounded by many lovely friends and my gorgeous city.

- I'm still working for AQA and doing my photography on the side. It's still not really paying, which is annoying, but I'm enjoying it so much that it almost doesn't matter.

- I've been accepted onto the MA Photography course at the London Metropolitan University this September. It's a two year part time course and I'm looking forward to getting my teeth stuck into it. I haven't done anything creative yet academic for a long while, not since my undergraduate degree really, so this will be good for me.

- I'm single now and this is, for the moment, a very sad thing and is taking a lot of getting used to. Some of you may remember that I was engaged a while back - well I was, and to an amazing person that I met right here over two years ago now. I also moved to Leicester. Well, the engagement ended in February and I moved back here, and the relationship finally ended last month. Things just didn't work out the way we had hoped - sometimes that just happens. It was still a shock to the system though and I'm still reeling from it, which I hope will stop soon because it's exhausting. I couldn't say what ended things, just that it got so complicated and messy, and much as we adored each other, in the end I just don't think we could deal with one another. We seemed so perfect for one another that it was very difficult to face the fact that it wasn't working out, and for a long time I couldn't. I think I have now though. We aren't speaking at the moment although I still think and speak very highly of him. Apart from the fact that I lost a very very great love in my life, I also lost my best friend and that's been the hardest thing to deal with. I admire couples who break up and manage to stay best friends through everything. I can't do that at the moment and also, sadly it seems that I am not wanted in that capacity any more. Getting over this, and also all this change in my life is easily the most difficult thing I've ever had to do and I'm really not myself at the moment, although I hope the day with come when everything is okay.

- My cat, and favourite person in the entire universe died last month and it was very sad. I have a new cat now and she's taking some getting used to but she's very cute. Her name is Lola, after The Kink's Lola. i don't know if she likes being named after a transvestite but she seems happy enough.

- I am starting a four week long stand up comedy course tomorrow evening and words cannot describe how nervous I am. I decided to do it as I needed something new to throw myself into, I wanted to build up my confidence and also people have told me I'm funny (not true) in the past so we'll see how it goes. If its a disaster then I can just shrug and laugh and say I tried. Anyway, laughter is meant to be the best medicine right? I reckon it heals all wounds.

- I am looking forward to the summer and hoping it brings many fun times, new experiences and happy memories to look back on when this year is over, God knows I need 'em.

I hope you guys are all well. I'm sorry I haven't been around much or commenting on blogs and things. I'm going to try to get better at that.

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