This year was the worst emotional roller coaster I have every been on. So much has happened & I regret none of it. But I'm awake now. I've been so depressed & not fully owning up to my bullshit. It needs to end.
I have to stop making excuses & take what I want in life. I have to love me for me & never compromise my feelings or needs. I'm only human. I know my worth too well by now. I know I have a lot to work on inside me. My anxiety, insecurities, my self doubt & my abandonment issues. But I'm a work in progress.
I am just a product of my experiences from life. Parents divorce, sexual assault, loneliness of being an only girl among 3 older brothers, my younger years desperate for love & affection from anyone I could find, just so much shit.
I have a hard time showing my emotions properly & I handle situations incorrectly, & I may make a stupid lie out of fear of losing. But I forget me sometimes, I get lost in the moments & in the loves of life that I forget who I am & where I wanna go. I just have to be reminded every once in awhile.
So today I will spend my day with myself. Just figuring life out for the new year. It's gonna be a good fucking year I can feel it. I just have to start it on the right foot, for myself.
Happy New Year everyone, make his last day of the year count for something. 🙏🏽 ✨
@missy @rambo
