Thursday Dec 02, 2004

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The way my eyes work, I feel like they're getting burned by too many screens.

My mind's about to careen

overboard into the deck out ontopofme

going gone to decypher what is left of me

contemplating what is all beyond infinity

and recognizing everything's divinity

georg cantor's spirit rest inside of me

is it genius or really senility



bust back into constructs

reject the masturbation

and turn to application

cause mere saying and talking and thinking slips into

into

nothing
xip:
The last 3 lines are how I've felt lately. It'd be nihilistic if it cared enough to give itself a name, I just don't feel like anything amounts to anything anymore. The scale always reads zero, the outcome is never different. I don't believe in God, or even really spirituality, and my faith in the things I put all my energy into before--love, excitement, drama--has become... transparent. O, I'm disillusioned! Woe is me! I think the only thing I believe in anymore is science, because it's the only thing that is real and not just an abstract theory perpetuated by human nature like everything else. I dunno. It's me. I see through myself and it disturbs me. I've started thinking maybe love is just space + time. Get two people close enough for long enough and they'll love each other. Maybe it's not magical. Maybe it's just physics.
-xip

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