inpo

I'm tired. Not only sleep-type tired, but just tired with life. Maybe that sounds overtly depressed, but that's not how I meant it. I'm just bored, maybe. Central Massachusetts only has so much to offer. The problem is I can't go anywhere. Too many responsibilties and attachments. I would love to just drop everything and go somewhere else, though. I think about it sometimes. Join Greenpeace or a travelling circus or something. See more of the world. I guess I have too much of my dad in me. He loves to travel and often does. I can't remember if the travel thing is a Taurus trait or a Gemini trait. I think it's in both, actually, but I could be full of crap.

Anyway, human emotion is a strange thing. It seems that whenever I think I have felt the full spectrum of human emotion, some unexpected feeling crops up and I don't quite know how to interpret it. It feels like two or three emotions at once, but rooted to the same situation. Perhaps that doesn't make sense, but I guess that's really the point. None of it ever makes sense. The human race is pretty evolved. Just look at the technolgy we have. The medical breakthroughs we have discovered. Yet after all that we still can't control our most basic instincts and impulses. Why do we feel things we don't want to feel? And why don't we feel the things we want to? It hurts my head to think about it. So, what is the best thing to do in that situation? Go to sleep. Everything is always easier to deal with in the morning.