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feel shit today. Was ment to have Rosie but when Sharon brought her up she said she'd gotten upset about seeing me She didn't wanan leave Sharon. Maybe over tired or something but it hurt like a monther fucker & it left me feeling shit. Really hurt hearing her say she didnt wanna see daddy . That also on top of stuff on my mind, not major or heading doing just a little niggle now & then when i let my mind wonder So not to happy today.I sometimes wish i didnt have feelings or care so much. I'd love sometimes to be like one of these " who gives a fuck" kinda guys but i guess then i wouldnt be me.

I called off my date with Becki. I was ment to be meeting her in Birmingham but it turned out she'd of been with afew pals for her mates b'day & comin off nights & what happened with Rosie it didn't put me in a going out mood nor to meet alot of new ppl all at once. So We are gonna talk tomorrow to sort another day out She was cool with it so thats ok.

Still goin on my second date tomorrow though with Jenny. Becki & Jenny are very different. Becki is very alternative, very moded & inked, shes also a body piercer. Jennie is kinda your typical girl, shes a nurse, likes her fashion ect. Both are very sweet in different ways & its very nice for two people to be into you, not sure what going on with my feelings about starting something but i guess i cant not go incase i miss something ect. Meeting my pal Jae for a gaming session before the date tomorrow psp's at the ready!!!!


Me and Ant have gotten the ball rolling on the new band, im woking on two new songs which are below so any feedback will be great. We are gonan do alot more accustic stuff, kinda mellow but also we are gonna keep our heavy side, even mix the two which i love to try. So sorry for the long update guys. Your all fab though and very cool. Songs below then guys any feedback would be great. A tongue for the guys and a kiss for the girls


song one: mellow verses heavy chorus
intro
You've made me feel so unreal
i've walked away,Gave up my stand
In our eyes, not to fear
The words you say

my mind it is twisting
constantly persisting
That even way back then, I should of known who i'am
I was acting a fucking punk
Tryin to get a nut, once I got you - fucked up & lost you
I've been left so high and dry
So high and dry my fucking dirty, sweaty clothes will never dry
I don't mean to diss, I do miss your kiss
But not to go through this again

You have made me feel (made me feel)
I can walk away (walk away)
Even in life
From the words you say

I realise what been missing
Pissing on me from a distance
I do not need assistance
Now that I got life - completely right i've found the light
Maybe I acted a prick
conflict i always seemed to pick
My mind fields turned me into this
Not to be a diss, I don't wanna kiss
But you can suck on this again

You have made me feel (made me feel)
I can walk away (walk away)
Even in life
From the words you say


But now , I've reached another height
Sometimes I can come appear
Sometimes I can watch from here
Stopped the wasted ways
Sometimes I can come appear
Sometimes I can watch from here
At the real you

This is how you want it to be...you wanted it
This is how you want it to get...you wanted it
You can make me feel



song two: All out heavy shit lol


A spark will soon ignite
fires rage to purify the night
Within city walls creatures howl with fright
removing decades of eternal night
Tear apart your foolish mask
revealed now a weakend sight
No longer shall we bow
Ashes removed a new beging we call for this night

Revelations the time is now
all bounderies smashed no bleeding now
inner spirt rise & break free from this hell
A new edon with voices we call for now


To advance in truth a rights
To advance in freedom & light
The path of righteousness can be misleading
hear the winds they are pleading
Giving direction & power for freedom
All barriers shall be broken
All heart alight and open
Teasures within shall be awakend


Revelations the time is now
all bounderies smash no bleeding now
inner spirt rise & break free from this hell
A new edon with hands we'll build



song three. no hooks or and anything like that just sang all way through, well im hoping anyways


Press my temple in to feel the sin
Just a second to reveal to you what was lost
Still locked within
Evidence of the past can you see it burning my eyes
You won't remove me, light a candle for my memory


So here is me
Stripped bare of all my pride
Not an ounce of strgenth
I'm so dead to you
your tears they run dry
i cant snap this cycle
I see the sadness in your mind
And how can i relate when all you do is deny


Essence of a former faith, i see your face
It reveals to me all what was wrong
In my heart a special place
it is kept under lock & key
But always ill be pacing

And now it's where the secret's pushed behind
Lantern's burn to keep it warm inside
I'LL depend upon my rights
to fight for a better me
But always your burn in my mind