inkedbuddhist

buddhism...

this is a huge post for me.. second only to the amazing support of my friends and family buddhism has been an amazing source of comfort and solace for me in the last year...

it was about a year ago that depression and anxiety really started have an impact on my day to day life.. really got to an unmanageable point...

now i'd always had a mild intrigue for buddhism but it was at this point i really started to become interested and started to read up more on it.. i had support from two very special people who bought me books and encouraged me to start studying it.. i started to mediate (i try to daily) and began visiting a temple...

so the first time i visited the temple the monk there told us all about a fictitious story about hapiness and material attachment and wealth.. he tells us about a very successful businessman.. looked upon by everyone around him as having everything.. who gets home from work and tries to commit suicide because he is so unhappy.. i could have cried there and then.. he had that person sat in front of him as he told the story.. me...

so i started to read up more.. go to the temple more.. and found that buddhism really resonates with me.. not so much the tibetan buddhism of re-incarnation but definitely but zen buddhism of how to live life.. and be happy.. i have always tried to treat people as i want to be treated.. and much of buddhism is reinforcing this.. how we can never truly be happy til those around us are happy...

so now i've been embracing buddhism for almost a year.. without a doubt the toughest year of my life.. at times i haven't coped and at times i haven't been very buddhist at all.. but i'm working on it.. on me.. and am using buddhism to guide me.. remind me who it is i want to be...