I think im moving out, taking a break. 15 years.
I don't goto meetings, I haven't been given any coins, I'm still a "bad parent" but I keep trying. She fights, screams and yells because she wants peace. I "shut down" because if she thinks she is right, everyone else is wrong, screaming and asking the same questions about happened is pointless. I started drinking because I had no control of this cycle. I stopped
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Don't get sucked in become the Dante Hicks of dollar tree. What is something that inspires you? What reminds you of what you REALLY want to do with your life? I remember when I was your age...ish, I started working for comcast so I could get benefits for the wife and kids. I didn't know a damn thing about cable, but I learned. I put...
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I keep trying.
Second friday in a row i didn't come home. I worked during the day and was tired. Fell asleep at the end of my shift and was running late. spoke to her earlier in the day because she needed help getting the computer to stream to the TV and she was cranky, wanted movie on for the kids.
Sent her a funny picture about vapor...
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Sent her a funny picture about vapor...
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goriella:
Wow, that sounds painful. It's hard to be in ANY relationship for a long period of time. Both parties project on each other and when they get bored they start acting out to drive the other one away. Sometimes it's just a simple bump in the road, but other times it's just a snowball slide of shit. All I can say is best of luck and remember... it takes two people to either make or break any relationship. Let us know if you need any advice or ear to listen. 
For some people the only time during the day they can get peace and relaxation is during yoga... I sometimes i agree, there are some days i cannot relax and think except while my wife is at yoga without me.... unfortunately i dont think thats how it is supposed to happen.
it's so damn easy not wanting to drink...its so damn hard trying to find what little patience and selflessness i have left to keep trying.
When the closest person to you and the biggest reason for your sobriety doesn't seem to know that the one year anniversary is near and is pretty much ready to divorce you, it would make most people question how to or fail to stay sober. If one is physically, mentally and verbally attacked and belittled repeatedly which is why I started drinking in the first...
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goriella:
Wow! That is Big! Staying sober is definitely a challenge and makes escape nearly impossible. It's gotta be hard when the person that you are mostly doing this for isn't supporting your efforts. Just try to remember that this benefits you as well. Do it for yourself and hopefully she will follow. I think you are doing great though
mortis322:
CONGRATULATIONS ON STAYING SOBER!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK