injuredcyclist

sick on christmas. fuckin awesome. my throat feels like someone attacked it with a wire brush. when i cough it sounds like im about to die. woke up this morning at 5am and spent the next two hours with my eyes closed trying to back to sleep, noting the body aches. i was hoping this was just going to be a sore throat, but it doesnt feel that way now.

oh yeah, and my internet went out today too. fine this morning, modem lost signal at midday. im on someone's random wireless connection right now. i cant really get signal from my bedroom, so i sit in the living room. a picture wouldnt do justice as to how barren the living room is. in two years nobody has ever decided to buy even cheap furniture.

the good thing is i didnt have any plans. christmas alone in new york for another year. i didnt get ba humbug like i have in the past. i honestly havent felt much of anything. the lack of a solid snowstorm means it doesnt feel like winter or christmas at all.

anyway. laundry to finish. travel safe and dont do anything too terrible.

and for all of those that are alone and feeling shitty about it (ive noticed there seem to be a lot on sg), its really ok. the time that you have a loving partner at your side and are together with friends and family is coming, sooner than you think. im about the biggest pessimist i know, and i still believe its going to be different some day. cheer up, and know that someone (me) is thinking about you.

night.