injuredcyclist

good news and bad news today.

good news: my guitar came. bonus is that it came and someone was around to sign for it, saving me a trip to the bronx tomorrow night.

bad news: i made another appointment to the doctor about my stomach. i guess this is good news, but the appointment was for a colonoscopy (one more procedure im having about 25 years too early) and doesnt take place until december 2nd. this means ill have felt shitty, eating the same bland food and having absolutely no social life, for three months. i almost broke down at work after i made the appointment. im terrified that the doctor wont find anything, and that whatever this is will be some bullshit chronic condition i have to live with the rest of my life. honestly, psoriasis is enough. im so mentally tired of feeling sick. i dont know whether to be angry or kinda depressed about it, and i think i probably shouldnt be feeling either of those things, but handling it a bit better instead. i dunno.

i turn 26 tomorrow. 25 kinda sucked.