I know its long but read it, get to know me better
So this morning I repierced my ears and now since I dont have any jewerly to put in the new holes I have to walk around with a sewing needle in one and an allen wrench in the other. So what sort of earring should I get to fill these holes? should I get some plugs just like every other boy or should I get something cute like you would see a "scene" girl wear? cute stars? pac man? lol so many to choose from. How do you girls do it.
On a sort of similar note I am sad that I lost the fake pearls from my picture section. It sucked when they broke. I totally wore them all the time. lol
I totally dont even care about what I wear. Just so you all know I am not like wired or something - I usually have some youth large band shirt and some kind of hoodie, you know how girls have like those set of clothes that like they could go the whole month and never wear the same thing twice. I am that way with my jackets and hoodies. I own like a million, the irony being I live in AZ, where its hot and dry and not cold at all except for in my bedroom, grocery stores, and most classrooms.
I have some college applications to fill out so I can get out of here, but every time I go to tackle them I feel overwhelmed and full of anxiety cause I know in advance I wont make the cut and if I know that why apply. I am stressing out about getting in the Christian college for a lot of reasons. They want me to have 20 hours of community college credits, I am trying to think about how long it would take to aquire 20 credit hours. If anyting thats a few years unless I decided to over do it and take it all at once.
So I am like well the goal itself to get to Omaha, NE maybe I can find a place to stay go to there community college till I can get into Grace, or UNO ( the university) which with my luck since I barely made it out of Highschool leads me to believe its almost as hard to get in there as it is Grace. So my mistakes are coming back to bite me, and I am thinking I really want to buckle down and be serious this time around I want to move and start fresh in a place I feel I am being called to go yet not seeing a way there. The people I used to talk to out there have long since severed their ties to me, its okay I am not doing it for them. It be idle to find some one who would give me an honest shot and let me come stay with them till I got a job and a place of my own to stay, letting me do chores around the house and cooking and all that stuff to earn my keep.
Since I dont have a car or job yet here the money is a bit too low for me to just up and go out there on my own and try to find a place. Plus I need to some how show my parents I have what it takes to start up some where new. I am sure they will eventually help me with everything but I gotta come with them with a well thougth out plan. I mean its so wierd to me that I am 21 and yet I cant do a lot of things I want to do all because I live at home still.
I dont even know what I want to be really as far as carrier gose, I know I eventually want to be a stay at home parent and work from the house. I always wanted to write marching band shows for highschool lines. I do okay and novel writing and working on concept albums, biut as far as being a musician gose I am really only good at sort of a studio musician type role. I need to rely on other musicians to take my words and bring them to life. I can do band photography. I have my own small record label (www.myspace.com/upandgorecords). I dont know I just a break from life and thinking or I am going to run myself ragged and collapse.
I have my character names for the Nation Novel Writing Month - See how they sound to you I always have a problem with last names.
Jaik Thomas
Jaik Tragger
Sarah Marie
Sarah Darling
Sarah Tragger
Its going to be mostly a two character piece, a love story based on some black and white photos. I will post a picture of the characters later and you can help me with the last names.
Ever just want to scream - lol I do for no reason
So this morning I repierced my ears and now since I dont have any jewerly to put in the new holes I have to walk around with a sewing needle in one and an allen wrench in the other. So what sort of earring should I get to fill these holes? should I get some plugs just like every other boy or should I get something cute like you would see a "scene" girl wear? cute stars? pac man? lol so many to choose from. How do you girls do it.
On a sort of similar note I am sad that I lost the fake pearls from my picture section. It sucked when they broke. I totally wore them all the time. lol
I totally dont even care about what I wear. Just so you all know I am not like wired or something - I usually have some youth large band shirt and some kind of hoodie, you know how girls have like those set of clothes that like they could go the whole month and never wear the same thing twice. I am that way with my jackets and hoodies. I own like a million, the irony being I live in AZ, where its hot and dry and not cold at all except for in my bedroom, grocery stores, and most classrooms.
I have some college applications to fill out so I can get out of here, but every time I go to tackle them I feel overwhelmed and full of anxiety cause I know in advance I wont make the cut and if I know that why apply. I am stressing out about getting in the Christian college for a lot of reasons. They want me to have 20 hours of community college credits, I am trying to think about how long it would take to aquire 20 credit hours. If anyting thats a few years unless I decided to over do it and take it all at once.
So I am like well the goal itself to get to Omaha, NE maybe I can find a place to stay go to there community college till I can get into Grace, or UNO ( the university) which with my luck since I barely made it out of Highschool leads me to believe its almost as hard to get in there as it is Grace. So my mistakes are coming back to bite me, and I am thinking I really want to buckle down and be serious this time around I want to move and start fresh in a place I feel I am being called to go yet not seeing a way there. The people I used to talk to out there have long since severed their ties to me, its okay I am not doing it for them. It be idle to find some one who would give me an honest shot and let me come stay with them till I got a job and a place of my own to stay, letting me do chores around the house and cooking and all that stuff to earn my keep.
Since I dont have a car or job yet here the money is a bit too low for me to just up and go out there on my own and try to find a place. Plus I need to some how show my parents I have what it takes to start up some where new. I am sure they will eventually help me with everything but I gotta come with them with a well thougth out plan. I mean its so wierd to me that I am 21 and yet I cant do a lot of things I want to do all because I live at home still.
I dont even know what I want to be really as far as carrier gose, I know I eventually want to be a stay at home parent and work from the house. I always wanted to write marching band shows for highschool lines. I do okay and novel writing and working on concept albums, biut as far as being a musician gose I am really only good at sort of a studio musician type role. I need to rely on other musicians to take my words and bring them to life. I can do band photography. I have my own small record label (www.myspace.com/upandgorecords). I dont know I just a break from life and thinking or I am going to run myself ragged and collapse.
I have my character names for the Nation Novel Writing Month - See how they sound to you I always have a problem with last names.
Jaik Thomas
Jaik Tragger
Sarah Marie
Sarah Darling
Sarah Tragger
Its going to be mostly a two character piece, a love story based on some black and white photos. I will post a picture of the characters later and you can help me with the last names.
Ever just want to scream - lol I do for no reason
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emperor_norton:
Pac Man earrings? Seriously? They actually exist? That is AWESOME.
starshine2him:
Fear of doing things will ultimately keep you from living life--I know. Send t hose apps., if you don't get in, big deal. Shoot for the one you want and make baby goals that will get you there. Sometimes it is dishertening to push too hard at first. I needed to taste success to know that I could actually do it. You are obviously very smart, you can do whatever it is you want.