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So today is my little sisters 21'st birthday. She stopped by yesterday on her way home from school. I honesly have not had so much fun in awhile, we went out and spent a pile of $$ on good food and a few drinks. I love my sister she is so much fun to party with we just seem to get along so well now, makes me happy since we had something of a falling out after HS.

On a not so good note, why is it that women cant seem to really break up with you. My ex keeps calling me after she left me for some other guy, seems like every time she gets a little stressed or he pisses her off, im the fisrt person she calls. Normaly i wouldent mind but its hard on me, it just plain hurts. Some how she seem to always call or contact me right when im starting to really do better, and that always puts me back into my funk. Im really ready to be out of this, i dont like being sad. So i made it clear this time, no more, i cant talk to her not for a while. Sorry girl i love you very much but i cant fix your problems you have to do it your self, i got my own shit to work on.

I feel better over all though, less depression, to the point that im rethinking my choice to go on meds. I never liked the idea any way but i felt like i couldent overcome my depression on my own. I still dont know if i can but at least i dont feel like i need meds So i know no one reads this but its nice to have a place to vent and release my feelings.

Well thats it for now, so fuck off world