inertiatic

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.

I'm finding myself regretting too many things, and generally not being happy with choices I end up making. I've let too many opportunities pass me by, let people who I deeply cared for drift out of my life, and have just generally been unmotivated and lazy. I used to have a body I was very happy with, I was in great shape, could go out and do whatever I wanted without fitness being a concern, but now I look like shit and can barely run to the store and back without being thoroughly out of breath. I used to read a lot, but for the past few years I've only picked up one book and I've still yet to actually finish it.

I'm not even sure why I'm posting this, I think I just need to get it out somewhere that I can't just ignore it and forget about it. I just really feel increasingly unhappy with the current state of things in my life and am hoping facing that can motivate me to actually change things.