incompetent

i put up new pictures. i spent 1000 bucks on more drums. i got more other stuff. none of it keeps me happy.

seems like it's about time for my bi-monthly depression week and subsequent journal post. here's what sucks now:
-stina's in new york and has been for the past few days and i miss her.
-i did no tattoos today. it's hard to feel like you're good at what you do when nobody is buying it.
-i spent 3 hours on a drawing today and couldn't get anything to work right and it ended up right back how it started. it would have been more productive to masturbate the whole time.
-i'm a bad dad and can't get my dog to stop barking without flipping out.
-fat.
-i wish i had friends who wouldn't mind driving to come pick me up just so they could hang out with me. i used to have those.

whatever.