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you know that old Agent Orange song bloodstains?? I can't get it out of my head...at least it's not the song I had stuck in my head the other day (99 problems by Jay-Z) shit...I heard it on the radio in my car when I got it back from being fixed (By the way it looks good as new again Yay!!) and I couldn't get the damn song out of my head for like 3 days. Anyway, everythings going a little better. Still too much soap opera drama nonsense at work but at least it's slowing down there with all the bitchy customers. I still want and kind of need to find a different job though...one that pays me more so I can afford school without having to cause more unnecessary stress on my husband an I over being able to pay the bills every month and one that there isn't so much stupid petty bullshit going on. I mean when your at work sure once in a while there is bullshit to deal with but when it comes to crap like having to hear and account for someone else's problems and mistakes in their own personal lives that should be left to them and they shouldn't bring it to work with them. I REALLY can't wait till I at least get a Medical Assisting certificate because then I can get the job I have always been wanting...I've got things set up with a nursing school here but unfortunately there is this waiting list to get into the school. Kind of a catch 22 since there is a nursing shortage,yet the people who can and want to to get into nursing school have to wait. I figure in the meantime I can at least gain the experience by going through a few months to obtain the medical assisting certificate and that will almost guarantee that I will be able to work at some hospital while I attend nursing school. The more knowledge/experience the better. For a while I thought about going into criminal justice/forensics but psychologically after a while that career might take it's toll on me.Blood,Guts and Gore doesn't bother me one bit but I tend to overthink things and I know I would start getting all wacked out and depressed thinking about the who,what why where and when surrounding the circumstances of which a person died. In Nursing you have to deal with death but not in that "in your face" sort of way you would working in forensics. Still, it would be a fantastic opportunity and I admire those who are in the line of work. I think I'm done blathering off for now...until next time whenever I decide to update.