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Gawd I feel so much better. Went back to work for the first time since being out of the hospital and oddly enough I had fun. My husband thinks I am a total weirdo for liking work that much, but it's how I get my stress out. (I just hope the novelty of it doesn't wear off). I'm STILL bored out of my mind though and they say that comes with the territory of having this disorder but it's really a bitch trying to find something to do to fill every second of my day. I wish I wasn't like that and that I could just relax but it's really difficult for me. I feel as though I don't deserve it when I probably do, it's like relaxation is totally foreign to me...I know HOW to do it but something holds me back.