I tried to change today
Into who I was before
For that fleeting fraction of a second
I was someone else
Who I wanted to be
What I saw in my dreams
Watched it tear at the seams
Then break loose.
Tried to do
Everything that I did
What came without effort
Ran off and hid
In some cursed crevice
Beyond my reach.
I'm still...
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Into who I was before
For that fleeting fraction of a second
I was someone else
Who I wanted to be
What I saw in my dreams
Watched it tear at the seams
Then break loose.
Tried to do
Everything that I did
What came without effort
Ran off and hid
In some cursed crevice
Beyond my reach.
I'm still...
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Off dissecting distractions as long as I can bear.
billyfivecrows:
Oh! scalpel of masochism whose keen edge I so meanly rate.
Such a desperate occupation, and one I know all too well.
Be kind to yourself, cowboy.
If you don't, not many will.
Peace in Samadhi to ya.
-clint
Such a desperate occupation, and one I know all too well.
Be kind to yourself, cowboy.
If you don't, not many will.
Peace in Samadhi to ya.
-clint
my parents are upstairs watching football, and i'm down here dying, hoping that's only a metaphor. but maybe if it wasn't, the world as i know it could finally end and give me a real fresh start. a chance to find something worth clinging to, that doesn't bite back for no reason. but this emotion is self-medicated, overdosed and ingested far too frequently. something's gonna...
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the door is off its hinges
no now its completely gone
blown
to the wind
and beyond
as if there were a place
past which concept couldnt reach
like theres really any limit
our minds could not breach
how long can
one foot in then
one foot out
last without slipping
into something more than a flirt
little flick of the wrist
i know i...
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no now its completely gone
blown
to the wind
and beyond
as if there were a place
past which concept couldnt reach
like theres really any limit
our minds could not breach
how long can
one foot in then
one foot out
last without slipping
into something more than a flirt
little flick of the wrist
i know i...
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billyfivecrows:
Your words matter.
These above and others. If you apply the integrity of heart to your songs that is in evidence here, you will go wide and well.
Thank you. It does help to hear and talk.
There is no decision. I'm done with the romantic/sexual aspect of that relationship. It wasn't an easy decision at all. But a wise one. I can breathe my own air, and sure I'll find a partner who has similar lungs.
I'm not depressed. Doesn't really happen anymore. But I am introspective, and any melancholic dullness now has a lucid sheen which makes it quite a bit more kind.
Lonliness is temporary, and only helps to trigger a mastery of my priorities, a consciousness of course, that, although sometimes ambiguous, has the effect of a weather vane on a turtles's back in an sound-proof chamber. Go slow in silent nowhere; any measurable weathering is of your own movement and making.
But there's always excitement as well. Never far off or far away.
I'm a Gemini...If I'm not comfortable with my my mood, I've only to give it a few minutes and it will change!
It's late. When it gets late, I tend to think in poetry, if at all.
So I'll go for now
And thanks again
Nice to have good friends around here.
-c.
These above and others. If you apply the integrity of heart to your songs that is in evidence here, you will go wide and well.
Thank you. It does help to hear and talk.
There is no decision. I'm done with the romantic/sexual aspect of that relationship. It wasn't an easy decision at all. But a wise one. I can breathe my own air, and sure I'll find a partner who has similar lungs.
I'm not depressed. Doesn't really happen anymore. But I am introspective, and any melancholic dullness now has a lucid sheen which makes it quite a bit more kind.
Lonliness is temporary, and only helps to trigger a mastery of my priorities, a consciousness of course, that, although sometimes ambiguous, has the effect of a weather vane on a turtles's back in an sound-proof chamber. Go slow in silent nowhere; any measurable weathering is of your own movement and making.
But there's always excitement as well. Never far off or far away.
I'm a Gemini...If I'm not comfortable with my my mood, I've only to give it a few minutes and it will change!
It's late. When it gets late, I tend to think in poetry, if at all.
So I'll go for now
And thanks again
Nice to have good friends around here.
-c.
if i am lonely it is because i need to be in order to learn not to
if i am confused it is because there is a clarity seeking me as much as i seek it
if something doesnt seem right it was not meant for me
ive known where im headed
ive chosen to look away
again and again
required a reminder to
lock...
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if i am confused it is because there is a clarity seeking me as much as i seek it
if something doesnt seem right it was not meant for me
ive known where im headed
ive chosen to look away
again and again
required a reminder to
lock...
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billyfivecrows:
Thanks! Glad ya like 'em...
You're on quite a roll yourself there, man. Good stuff. Nice choice of photo as well.
The desperate, searching, florid and humid, abstracted autobiography will never go out of fashion, I hope.
Bliss to you,
c.
You're on quite a roll yourself there, man. Good stuff. Nice choice of photo as well.
The desperate, searching, florid and humid, abstracted autobiography will never go out of fashion, I hope.
Bliss to you,
c.
I like playing with my lips when i trip and power lines drive me away. Also if i focus on going forward, i will surely and inevitably drift to one side. Also when i trip, one note is all i need, so i think I'm gonna go play it for a bit amidst the spinegasm.
the ideas bred from isolation misdirected from the flow that...
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billyfivecrows:
Amen, brother...
Come now and
Quiet down the noise
This silence waits
To frustrate and
Put me to the test
Something set
From the past to let
These woolen wishes wait their turn
And if that never comes
Then that's one thing to be learned
Dismissed
Then quickly forgotten
Quiet down the noise
This silence waits
To frustrate and
Put me to the test
Something set
From the past to let
These woolen wishes wait their turn
And if that never comes
Then that's one thing to be learned
Dismissed
Then quickly forgotten
"All my life needed was a sense of someplace to go. I don't believe that one should devote his life to morbid self-attention. I believe that someone should become a person, like other people"
toxiktiggrrr:
long ass story
Vaccine
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Read into
All the way through
And out the other side
So similar to the start
But mere words have little to do
With keeping black and white apart
When used with the utmost care
The longer you stare
The more you learn
About things best left ignored
That's how it was, at least before
You grew eyes in the back of your...
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Read into
All the way through
And out the other side
So similar to the start
But mere words have little to do
With keeping black and white apart
When used with the utmost care
The longer you stare
The more you learn
About things best left ignored
That's how it was, at least before
You grew eyes in the back of your...
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toxiktiggrrr:
thats insane. that is my neighborhood
I broke my hand last night. Two fingers and some of the knuckles, maybe it's just sprained but it hurts really fucking bad. I can't play guitar, and keyboard is very limited. Right now I'm typing kinda slow. and the story goes:
Too much drinking, tried to do three consecutive cartwheels and on the third i crashed into a bush in my front yard and...
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toxiktiggrrr:
i lived in bay view actually right across the street
toxiktiggrrr:
what street out of curiousity, i grew up in that area