in_decission

why do i even try?

all signs point to no.

You know that feeling where something that's always been a part of you on some subconscious level finally decides to join the rest of your awareness?

a birthday present for a very old friend:



days bathed in acid
throughout the luminous night
traversing every facet
between facade and life
a flicker in the forming
of all i'll ever be
the wind the only warning
of misshapen symmetry

time is not a distance
distance is not a crime
crime is a solution
seeking peace of mind

my brother, my reflection
soul and...
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a quarter of a century or a fraction of a second, it makes no difference now. whether by way of fate or choice, it makes no difference now. the mechanisms comprising the details are what they are, names are merely dissections of purity. definitions are distraction.

someone much wiser than i'll ever be, although perhaps not as wise as i once was said: "america is...
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Well it's been about a month of being exhausted, unmotivated, and generally feeling sorry for myself.


I think it's high time I picked up my shit and started doing something with it.



Here's to ambition, the last refuge of failure.

Whoever reactivated my account, you motherfucking rock!


I'll have to do some serious updating, my god.

Autolux-Got my sleep on.

Qotsa-I'm good with the CD tracks, thanks.

NIN-What happened to the not-ripped Trent? The one with hair and anger? It was NIN, so the show was good, mostly. But I've seen two better Nails shows. Not to say it was terrible....

They did play 'Right Where It Belongs' to some moderately amusing videos of people dancing, including George W.

I don't...
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Nine Inch Nails tomorrow.....

Learning songs today.....

too engrossed in music to say much more.

Hope everyone's doing well.

Whooooosh.

"Try to get some sleep, Joe........at regular hours?"

I do not like the things my father says, I do not like his voice, I do not like his demeanor, I do not like how he shows concern, but I vaguely appreciate the effort.

I tried to change today
Into who I was before
For that fleeting fraction of a second
I was someone else
Who I wanted to be
What I saw in my dreams
Watched it tear at the seams
Then break loose.

Tried to do
Everything that I did
What came without effort
Ran off and hid
In some cursed crevice
Beyond my reach.

I'm still...
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Off dissecting distractions as long as I can bear.