i made my flight reservations to go to cali from 2/7- 2/14....to get away from everything thing here.....
Man everytime i go see my mom she brings up my ex fiancee..shes all why don't you and josh get back together. Does she understand that i went thru so much bs with him....
and he kicked me out of our house...of all things!!!! Now why would i go back to that ??? Yes i miss some things about him and love him alot as a person, but i am def not going back to that shit...
that whole situation was bad time in my life...well almost 7 years of my life.
none of my friends bring up him b/c they know...they just know me too well and know how i am about that subject...its just something you dont do. And she knows that all too well about our situation, why would she do that ????
And now i'm thinking about him lately...its got me all pissed off and bitter....and the home situation with her being gone and everything is jsut a bitch right now....
im contemplating drinking the week away....and drowning my sorrows at the bar. B/c its the thing to do..my wknd sucked this week isnt starting off too well....i jsut want to cry, and i don't cry but sometimes you have to....I'm so emo i know...
But damnit this shit sucks
At least i get paid this week, and i have 27 days to go to beautiful san diego...and just hang at the beach all day not worrying about anything in the world...
enuf of my sad sad story...im excusing myself to go and cry now
Okay i am done....
Man everytime i go see my mom she brings up my ex fiancee..shes all why don't you and josh get back together. Does she understand that i went thru so much bs with him....
and he kicked me out of our house...of all things!!!! Now why would i go back to that ??? Yes i miss some things about him and love him alot as a person, but i am def not going back to that shit...
that whole situation was bad time in my life...well almost 7 years of my life.
none of my friends bring up him b/c they know...they just know me too well and know how i am about that subject...its just something you dont do. And she knows that all too well about our situation, why would she do that ????
And now i'm thinking about him lately...its got me all pissed off and bitter....and the home situation with her being gone and everything is jsut a bitch right now....
im contemplating drinking the week away....and drowning my sorrows at the bar. B/c its the thing to do..my wknd sucked this week isnt starting off too well....i jsut want to cry, and i don't cry but sometimes you have to....I'm so emo i know...
But damnit this shit sucks
At least i get paid this week, and i have 27 days to go to beautiful san diego...and just hang at the beach all day not worrying about anything in the world...
enuf of my sad sad story...im excusing myself to go and cry now
Okay i am done....
I know your going through alot. You spent 7 years with him....so you must have been happy at some point and thats what your mom is thinking about......she just wants you to be happy
Anyway.....Im always willing to talk if you ever need it
If you want to go on a week long bender, you can come drink with me up in the EC. I don't have a job really (I haven't called to say I want to work during break yet, and can hold off doing so ), so I can drink all day with little or no consequences. It would be awesome. We could drown our troubles in copious amounts of booze. I could lament about Martine, Megan, and Heather, in order to compete with your comiseration. Although my relationship stuff is mainly petty bullshit that is caused by me liking girl who don't have much in common with me. I am going to be back in Maryland tomorrow night, and if you wanted to do some heavy drinking, we could start bright and early wednesday morning. My heavy drinking friend left for college already, so I need to kee-p up the partying I did with him while he was still home.
Why am I so closet emo? Because my anti-emo idol (Matt from the Venkmans) broke up with his girlfriend (actually she broke up with him), and he turned into the most emo piece of shit I ever met. I was so sad. He was my role model. At least his self-depreciating humor helped him keep the respect I had for him.